I'm 35 and last night I dreamed about a high school crush again. This happens all the time. It's like I'm trapped in high school and can't mature past that point because I never fulfilled my dreams when I had the chance. I was too shy to make a move. I will never again have a chance to make it with those particular women I crushed on back then. I ruined those days by not maturing enough to ask them out, and I will never get over it. It is far too late to ever correct the mistakes I made back then that determined the course of my life.

Nowadays I can't get attracted to new women very easily at all. I can't get motivated enough to even try to date women my age. My desire for them will always pale in comparison to the desire I had for my dream crushes. I will never have that daily exposure to the same people nearing their prime over and over again. That constantly reinforcing loop of seeing the object of my desire, going home to pine over them, then getting to see them again the next day. Now, if I see an attractive woman, I get exposed to her for maybe a minute tops before I never see her again. It's impossible to develop that desire that comes with repeated exposure.

Who knows this feel? How can one ever be fulfilled when it is far, far too late? The situation is hopeless.

They are all probably ugly now. Count your blessings.

Very true. The number 1 best of the best is now horrifying looking (mostly just due to weight gain). I guess the point of the OP is just on some level I feel like I was in love with these girls. They were part of my pack, my litter, my home where I belong. You can't get that feeling with women you meet as an adult.

There is no best of the best when you are talking about 14-16 year olds. They are just little girls and when a man becomes a man they see them as such. You may have a deep rooted attraction to little girls in this age range and that’s why women around you today are of no interest.

this is why i bang teens

@Kanis 999, I am not sure what is a problem that You are trying to describe, but: if You are good looking what is a problem to have something 20-21-year-old girls?

Sadly I think this is the problem. No judgment but try and privately seek professional help for this issue. No sane man cares about what girl he missed out on in HS when he becomes and adult.