A little bit of background about me, never had a girlfriend before and was not close to having one.
It will be a wall of text but whoever wants to genuinely help, please do because i feel broken...
When I met her I was just "coming out" and trying to get in contact with girls and stuff. I met her in March I think and we hit it off.She lives in another city ( 1 hour plane and 4 hours car drive ).We had continuous conversations for days, like we would chat from the morning to late night on the phone and stuff, we had a lot in common...it felt so good. I had a hard time talking to her on the phone but she baby stepped me into it, like i told her i never had a girlfriend, she understood and took her time with me. Then she came to my city for 4 days, we did a lot of phucking and cuddling, it was so nice.


So her parents are divorced and she lives alone close to her father.She found out her father had cancer and that I think is when things shifted towards the worst, her father is also a little bit abusive, like always tells her she is good for nothing, she did nothing, she has no job and stuff, she didnt finish her university thesis...but she still goes and takes care of him. I helped her with her thesis ( some excel stuff ) and she passed like last week, i always talked to her when she was down and offered her my support, there were numerous times when she told me I was the best thing that happened in her life, and from hearing what she went trough it does sound like that. Now the thing is before me she had a french boyfriend for like 2 years but that dude was toxic to her, kind of like her dad...she told me they "broke up" but she still texted him for $ because when they were together she went to visit him in France and she paid for a lot of stuff, even bought him a wii game or some **** and said she tries to get her $ back and doesnt feel anything for him anymore. We ended up seeing eachother again after like 2 months near her city but something didnt feel right, like she wasnt the same, she said she felt bad for leaving her father alone at home ( even though he was ok for 2 days ).Then like in august I think the french guy came to her place uninvited and forced himself inside her house and that is when she got really bad...she has 2 girl friends that work at a bar and she went there daily up until like 3-4 in the morning, she drank a lot, even did some drugs, then when her father found out about the french guy again he got really mad at her so yea, she put a bandage over it with drinking and drugs...When this was happening I didnt knew about any of it, we didnt speak that much and she only told me she went to the bar and how ****faced she got and with the drugs, I send her a "angry message" wished her good luck and blocked her, she tried to call me but didnt respond, then after like 1 or 2 days she sent me a message on whatsapp telling me again i am the best thing that happened to her and said please dont leave me...i ended up talking to her again and then she told me about the french guy, and that she also slept with one guy from the bar ( apparently a drug dealer) and with another guy from tinder, she said she wishes she could bring back time to when we first met and dont do these mistakes again...I was really depressed but knowing what she goes trough I decided to keep on talking to her....because I have feelings for her, because she helped me in the beginning, because I know what she is going trough, like she still tells me a lot of stuff that she doesnt tell anyone and i see that it helps her.
After she told me what she did she said she will try to not drink and go to the bar anymore but ended up going again numerous times, I tried to like get in contact with her friends who work at the bar but with no success, yesterday her father was feeling better and this is when he usually talks chit to her, some other stuff happened, she got mad / sad and ended up going to the bar again. I asked her not to but she said she wants to feel good and this is the only way she can...I told her that that is when usually people who hang out at the bar see it, get her drunk and do stuff with her and she said everything she did ( sleeping with those ) was on purpose and that now when she went she only talked to the girl friends who work there...
during the last few days she kept saying how one of her friends went to another city to party and she wanted to go too, stuff like this that dont offer any hope for the better..

On top of the time she told me when she slept with those guys, what she said now broke me even more, I cant focus on things and do stuff, i feel broken...I kept in mind that saying that you should never leave people when they are at their lowest and i tried to help her.
I think I am still hoping that once her life gets better we can talk like before....since she lives in another city I dont think we were actually together, we only seen each other 2 times. She kept on telling me when I didnt know the friench guy was there that she wished we were closer, she wishes I was there and stuff like that, she said she was never with anyone like me before who brought so much positivity in her life....that is why I still have hope that maybe after a few years we can revisit this ? I dont know

I invested energy that I was otherwise investing in something bad ( porn / fapping ) into her and now that we dont talk that much I feel empty / lost / sad...I get such a rush, happy feeling when I help people and when I helped her better herself it felt so good / rewarding because she made me feel loved. After she told me what she did with those guys she said she did it for a escape ( kind of like drinking ) but said she never got it with those guys, she only felt it with me.
There is more to it, that I didnt write, like how bad it was when she was little, her teens, how she feels now because she cant move on in life because of her father, what happened with her ex, she also said some things to when she used to drink alone at home like how fked up she is, how she wishes she wasnt my first, one time she said maybe after her father dies she want to travel the world and when she runs out of $ kill herself...stuff like that but sometimes it doesnt make sense because for example she says nobody cares about her but I can see her mom and sometimes her dad help her, she also gets some $ from them to get food and stuff...


TLR
met girl online that lives in another city
everything went so good, both happy, seen each other 2 times
told me I am the best thing that happened in her life ( genuinely seems like it )
her abusive father got cancer / her ex boyfriend came to her uninvited
everything went to chit, she started drinking a lot, did some drugs, slept with the ex and with 2 other guys
she was the first one that genuinely was into me A LOT
she told me what she did, for 2 days i felt depressed as fk, couldnt eat much or sleep
we still talk, she went to the bar again, I told her not to go because that is bad for her and people will take advantage of her drinking problem
she said everything she did ( fking those guys ) was because she wanted to, didnt text since then

now I feel like **** again but still have feelings / hope and cant let go because it feels empty as fk
Trying to work on myself but have no motivation and cant focus much

what do

Dude your cliffs need cliffs. I'm not reading any of that sh!t.

Just jerk off and stop being desperate. (Ded fkn Srs)

I did, feeling worse...
it feels like i just need to tell someone all this because i find it very hard to handle it on my own, i have no one to tell this stuff

Pics of girl and OP he posted last thread

It's almost like Romania is 3 decades behind. (Ded fkn Srs)

Read cliffs. Chit sucks op. This is a learning experience, don't make it anything more. You gonna hurt, probably cry like a little bish at some point. There are girls in your city, they are pretty, they didn't phuck three guys after chatting with you.

Edit: lol at pics

Drinks, does drugs, sleeps around, hangs out with shady people, in an abusive home, in abusive relationships, etc.

Yeah, this one is a keeper for sure.

You ignore all these things while only focusing on how “she makes you feel”

You only saw each other twice and she lives way too far away for this to work even if she wasn’t a disaster. Just because she was your first doesn’t mean she is the one for you. Stop excusing all these red flags and bad behaviors.

Just be happy you had 2 good interactions with her and just move on. She will only drag you down if you keep talking to her. Don’t be surprised that one day she hits total rock bottom, asks to move in with you, and brings all her baggage into your home.

Why would you wait around for her to get her life in order and come back to you. You know what she will be doing all that time?

yes...im trying to think about what positive came from this, I learned to like myself more, I learned how to do some beard grooming, I learned that girls are not that scary and everyone is approachable, I am not as ugly as I think, I traveled by plane because of her, apparently I am good at phucking and eating ? lol,

but still feels like fking chit because I can still see the good in her (genuinely )I remember the first time i was her how sweet and kind she was.... but what is happening in her is making her like this
I want the old her back, i did not leave her when was at her lowest, I have hope that maybe when she gets better we can talk again

I guess I am trying to find excuses for what she did...

I would rather vote for Biden in 2024 than read all of that.

I know, in the beginning she said a lot how she wanted to leave that city and she mentioned it a couple of times to come to do more of her studies in my town ( better university and stuff ) but then her father got cancer and all that went down the drain...
I think that if she didnt have all that happening in her life she wouldnt have done what she did.


I find it very hard to leave people who I know I can help...I am trying to say to myself what you wrote

You can’t live by “if” you need to live in reality. She chose the path she chose. Stop excusing her would be the first good thing you can do.

If you want to help her tell her to seek professional help. People need to help themselves at a certain point.

She is telling you what you want to hear while doing the opposite. Because she knows you melt when she tells you what you want to hear.

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not at all would be best.

Not sheriff srs
You can't help someone that hasn't taken the first step to help themselves.

This is coming from someone who has a drinking problem.

Run. Srs.

Have other options.


This is always the answer.

Thank you for the legit answers guys, the funny ones also helped. This is why I misc.

I even paid for a online 1 month subscription for a therapist online that helped her a little
After she told me what happened and in the first days i offered her that again but she said no..


I guess all i wanted is for someone to tell me she is not worth it and I can find other way better ones. She was my first and was really nice, that is why I find it hard to let go.

Let go, move on. Objectively. Don't even try. Srs.

felt so bad i hope you move on, goodluck

lmao stereotypical Slav

Try men

I always come back to this thread when my mind starts playing tricks on me.

Thank you for the legit answers, this is why i misc.

u really wrote 6 pages about some poverty Romanian sloot ? go n/c she is getting banged by Romanian chad by now especially if u fell easily they will sense it and dump you

you have to a find a chick that worships u like a god, will lick ur angus and that you look down on her to keep her in check (aka in love) if u can't do that your pretty much phucked. Enjoy your turn until you get dumped

It’s normal to have feelings like that from time to time. But the logical side of your brain is telling you something isn’t right (obviously, she’s treating you like ****)

It’s too bad, most of us suffer heart break in our lives, but give it time and you will meet someone who makes you feel the same way and it makes sense logically (I.e. it’s not a long distance relationship, she respects you, etc.). That’s the one you wife up, not this one.

Easier said than done, but the earlier you move on from this one the better

remember all the dudes who have run through her before u bro

she let them smash much easier than she would ever let u

ur just an emotional tampon for her

she used u and cares nothing for u

women are whores who use men

you have zero power in the relationship and will always be cucked and just the dick she rides until she find someone better or "settles" after riding the cock carousel

Wow. She has more red flags than China. OP please block her and move on. I know it's hard when you have feels, but this woman will give you nothing but grief.

Ok read it because I'm bored.

This is all dead srs advice OP:

Didnt even have to read it all because the first sentences predicted the rest. You don guffed from the beginning, you never should have told her you never had a gf. But then again you never had a gf so newbie mistake. Never ever again tell future girls your lack of experience. You dont even have to lie or exaggerate keep vague and mysterious if the subject comes up; like "enough" , "its doenst matter", etc.

And there will be others because SHE IS NOT IT. You singlehandedly placed yourself in the friend-zone category. The fact that she admits slooting f0cknig other guys and talks about her ex and what not means that she does NOT see you as a real prospect to have an actual relationship with. A girl will never admit that to a man she actually wants for a srs relationship. You might as well be her best gay friend.

You are being her emotional tampon. There is no coming back.

So to answer your question ; since she was your 'first' you were going to catch feels and its normal. You need to block her again and go no contact. Stop hoping for a fantasy and dont put your eggs in one basket. Go back to "coming out" whatever that fock that means lulz. But do it again and again and again, thats how you met her to begin with.

Don't feel bad, see it for what it is. A learning experience and keep trying to meet other girls, don't be a clinger to the next one who shows you attention. You'll keep learning from the experience. Leave this girl as the 'my first gf story' we all have one. All past girls that I was with helped me filter out to my current one.