Like everyone I knew growing up had normal large families that go to church and get good careers and get married and own houses and families. Both my parents were single children and grandparents were off the boat. Like sone how I have 0 friends, struggle with the dating thing, live in an apt. I literally just feel like I live amongst peopje but I’m not I’ve of them. I ask myself what’s the point of this? What am I supposed to do now? I’m too old to have a child and marriage seems stupid to me. These people at work ask me what y’all doing? Where are y’all from, what did y’all do this weekend. There ain’t no y’all. It’s me. Only me.

Hmm yeah I'm kinda similar. Probably why I'm a miscer.

The misc is awesome. I came across it in ancient days. Found it on a forum called totse. They eventually took totse down. Used to be interesting stuff here but it became trendy to be an anus towards everyone and at one point mods were banning everyone. Stilll find out about normal stuff here.

Find a Ukrainian bride.

High test introverted sigma male probably

I've always just done everything by myself basically

everyone have 3 choices

1) you either stay by yourself cause you enjoy it or cause you dont know people
2) you get married and make a family
3)you have tons of friends and connections and youre married to your work so your day is literally super hecktic and full


up to you what option you wanna go with

My grandmother was actually Ukrainian 😅

i have strange & ugly life

IDK if you want a family or not, but how old is too old? Men have more time for that than women.

People do that?

Mines fukd srs

Never felt happier srs

I def feel like that too, my situation is entirely diff from you but I just feel very different from all the people I grew up w/ and all the people I live around.

Stopped hanging with all my friends from highschool and college days cause I just grew apart from them. Lost interest in partying around 20. Been smoking weed for almost 10 years but hate all the people I know who smoke weed and hate bummy fuhks who just sit around. Like bodybuilding and running/cycling/mtb but don't seem to fit in or be similar to anyone I meet who is into those things. They're just too boring and machine like. I can't stand the narcissistic gym culture I loathe the Lycra wearing ****s who cycle or run in groups. I also like BMX and skating and get along with those types well but most of them are bums who don't have anything else going on in life and just don't seem to understand I have **** going on and can't be a park rat.

Get along well with my coworkers but at the same time we are entirely different people. Most people I meet just seem so shallow they just want to socialize and be hedonistic. I eat a basic whole food diet that literally no-one seems to understand and people always look at me like im a fuhking nut cause I actually care about what I eat and how I carry myself.

Ive had an autoimmune disease for over ten years that makes it hard to relate to people and indulge in the things most people like such as alcohol and junky restaurant food. Despite that I am healthier and more fit than everyone I know.

I am not into the typical entertainment, I don't watch game of thrones or any of that chit. I watched yellowstone a few times and think its boring az chit and basically a soap opera I don't get the hype.

I have a woman, a home and baby coming I guess that's pretty normal but we don't really socialize with other couples or families we just don't seem to fit in with people we meet or knew from HS/College.

Yeah well you seem like me but you have a woman and a child and you are smart enough to be healthy. You now have a family. I’m too smart to have friends. They drink and drive and do drugs. Most of the people I work with are black. Seem cool but we don’t hang out. I actually was really good in sports growing up but got into with a baseball coach and wasn’t going to play. My dad said I could just walk on anywhere In college pretty much in anything. Only problem when I got therd it was clown world. I ended up getting kicked out and got into more trouble. Strange things continued to happen. Now life is life. I had a gf but she really isn’t my type and actually this week started accusing me of cheating because she claims my ******** messenger was on. I was at work and was reading paragraphs and paragraphs of bs. It’s a daily thing so we got into it. No time for that. Actually something inside of me has been hurting for quite awhile now. It’s even effecting my lifts now. Not sure what it is.

Same even people that i've known for many years have become vapid and hedonistic just wasting all their time on social media, eating food and drinking and doing drugs all day. My parents are even obsessed with youtube and tablets now and they leave huge messes of food and cigs all over the floor when i go over there. My step dad used to lift and diet but he quit and just eats and watches youtube now lol. I used to be huge into active sub cultures like going to metal concerts, skateboarding, lifting, messing with cars and chit like that but i can't find anyone into that stuff anymore. Now that i'm in my mid 30's i don't even meet anyone that plays sports. People watch them on tv but like nobody actually plays them anymore?

All my old friends used to lift, play sports, work on cars, drive around blaring music, played guitar, skateboarded, went on road trips and to concerts and chit like that but i don't know what happened

I even remember talking to some old guys and they'd talk about their mustang mods or their old muscle cars and chit and you'd just easily have a bunch of people talking about that and going out to look at the cars and listen to the systems and stuff. Most people had audio systems in their cars. I don't think people do this much anymore. I still see some modded cars out there but it seems rare now. What happened to that scene? It was absolutely huge before 2015 or so.

What's keeping you from buying a house and bagging sloots?

You don't need a wife and kids to be happy. Buying a house is cheaper than an apartment, and if you're alone it's easy as chit to rent out spare bedrooms.

You could be living rent free and banging single moms til the cows come home. Take some initiative.

Haha damn I actually remember totse. Pretty sure I looked up how to make a battery powered bomb on there. That said, you're not the first to be the way you are and you won't be the last. Everyone thinks their in some special situation that's never been lived before. Although I think we all have something unique that we can contribute to the world, you're not the only one in your situation or dealing with certain issues.

My life is of strange look one

I do resonate with what you have described even tho we have found different paths. The idea of having a family has been one of the most important things to me since a child. My father is in a similar position as you. He loved us and my mother but just couldn't seem to keep his chit together to keep the family together. That may be why I am so serious about it I see his pain and don't want to end up in the same place. But I still have that same feeling in me constantly of "what is the point".

I have missed many opportunities and sat on the sidelines looking at the people doing what I wanted to be doing because I fell into the "what is the point" and didn't want to try and be dissapointed or to struggle. One of my biggest regrets is not being more serious about picking a career and just doing the work when I was younger and had no responsibility and instead doing what was easy and required little commitment. I feel trapped where I am now because I do have responsiblities and obligations and my woman and child relying on me. I can't just live for myself like when I was younger but I pissed all that away just trying to feel better for the day by avoiding chit, being anti social, stuck in low emotional ruts.

I try to have gratitude I do have alot in life but I still wish to make more of myself but have always struggled with low self worth, low confidence and self doubt. I feel a sense of shame over the fact I don't make alot more money and have a career i feel proud of. I work for the family business I make 65k but cost of living in Ontario is so expensive I am struggling to get by.

My parents put me in martial arts when I was a kid and I was very good. I trained 7 days a week, 3 hour days saturday and sunday and 1 hour sessions on week days, I competed nationally and quickly became one of the top athletes in my camp despite having the least experience. I absolutely hated it and quit as soon as my parents let me. Now I look back at those times as some of the best and proudest in my life. I find myself so often fantasizing about being a professional athlete of some kind. I always have but I want to either be the absolute best or not even try and for so long I just didn't try because the idea of doing what it took to be the best seemed too tall. I am at a point now where it's basically impossible for many things I loved, martial arts, football, extreme sports.

I know that feeling of pain and dissatisfaction that makes you feel like fuhk it whats the point. And then being dissatisfied because you see the cycle you are stuck in.

Ive gotten better at training my brain to be stronger and not let my pain and depressive personality get me down but some days can be so dark and painful man. Ive been in low places and sometimes chit is so bad with my work or my girl that I just see a true rock bottom to still come for me and its tough to see a light.

The details of my life are quite inconsequential... very well, where do I begin? My father was a relentlessly self-improving boulangerie owner from Belgium with low grade narcolepsy and a penchant for buggery. My mother was a fifteen year old French prostitute named Chloe with webbed feet. My father would womanize, he would drink. He would make outrageous claims like he invented the question mark. Sometimes he would accuse chestnuts of being lazy. The sort of general malaise that only the genius possess and the insane lament. My childhood was typical. Summers in Rangoon, luge lessons. In the spring we'd make meat helmets. When I was insolent I was placed in a burlap bag and beaten with reeds- pretty standard really. At the age of twelve I received my first scribe. At the age of fourteen a Zoroastrian named Vilma ritualistically shaved my testicles. There really is nothing like a shorn scrotum... it's breathtaking- I highly suggest you try it.

Too old for a child? LOL.

it should be dopaminergic simply speaking with others.

training your obliques and transverse abdominus in tandem vocal exercises
remember laughing until you couldn't breathe?

Yea man its like everyone has intentionally lost their minds and they just fill themselves up with stupid tv, chitty food, chitty alcohol, chitty social interactions, and accumulation of "nice chit".

I love my parents but also find myself almost disgusted with how much they have become mindless consumers and shallow fitness freaks (mom and step dad) and my real father is alot like your step dad he has basically given up to a degree and complains about the same chit like broken record but never taking any action.

I gave up on trying to do activities and sports with other people I do everything I want to do by myself and sometimes I run into people while doing chit. Every once in a while I plan to do something with brothers or distant friends like snowboarding.

I think it is somewhat common to fall out with the people you used to do chit with cause alot of the time they get a wife buy a house and have a kid and quit everything. That seems to be the common path for dudes after hs/college at a certain point. My prob is the people who are like that are insufferable to me and the people who haven't are like children stuck in the captian hook story. There doesn't seem to be an inbetween. People either never grow up and become wastebins or they grow up and give up on everything and get fat and cope with drugs/tv/food/buying chit.

I’m too health conciensous to do drugs or smoke

We did that growing up. Me and my bro were very active. We actually created sports leagues in a giant field away from like grown ups and stuff. Lol it was actually very successful. We all used to meet up in parking lots and do stuff but it’s cops!! Cops mess with normal people. They do t go after real criminals but if you are in a park or a parking lot with friends they are ripping your car apart while real crime is going on

Yeah see, technology makes every lazy and then it becomes an addiction. But we should also take note most of the things that were cool and enjoyable in 1990's and 2000's were replaced by newer stuff. Just like stuff in 1970's and 1980's were replaced in 1990's and 2000's by some newer stuff.

Don’t know much about buying houses. It’s funny you mention this. I’m in a semi relationship with a woman. I do love her but she has 2 boys abd the whole family is strange. It works becayse we have our own places and I do t have to put up with their bs. We actually broke up this weekend abd I logged onto tinder and within 1 hour I have 4 women wanting to hang out. I’m be chick is actually Russian and sending money back home in crypto. Seems interesting. Also don’t know why everyone is against Hispanic immigrants. These women are super hot and live muscled up white dudes. They are actually wife material too.