Contacting ex-boyfriend from 17 years ago

Any attempt to say Hi and see how he's been over the years is going to make me look completely pathetic Right? I had to suck off his inmate in penitentiary to get the number for his lawyer because he's not on any prison dating sites at all. (which makes it even worse) I was with him for 2 weeks and we lived together in a trailer park, before he robbed some convenient store and shot and killed some indian clerk before desecrating his dead body sexually. (wasn't a bad breakup at all)

In before just move on *******t