Sad
Angry
Tired
Remorseful
Resentful
Chaotic
Disappointed
Disassociated
Misanthropic
Unreachable
Faithless
Hopeless


Perhaps “broken”’ works. But I don’t think that’s it. Got anything better?

Bidenomics

Barrel of paper notes for a loaf of bread please. Sorry, half a loaf, I have been taxed for my high income.

That's how I felt when I was an active alcoholic. Chit can steal the soul. Got better when I got sober though.

I been going thru it too OP. Family issues mainly, but also job chit, girl issues, etc.

Chit never ends, but you just keep pushing through, life works itself out eventually

Hope you find some peace from w/e is troubling you

Alcoholism. Yeah, that’s good. Despite cutting down, the effects seem to stay with you. Soulless is good too. Every effort, all of your social interactions, and every loss or achievement is mechanical. A response to what is expected of you. The laughs, the good decisions, the labor. Just a program.

Thanks brother, and likewise.

I've never been an alcoholic, but are you talking about a loss of euphoria in general? Including things that used to give you a rush?

Outwardly, there’s constant rushes. Quick decisions, conflicts, loss, wit and humor when needed, genuine empathy too. Inside, there’s this understanding that I don’t keep it up, everything will fall apart. And that’s reinforced by reality. Everything will fall apart if I stop. It’s like you’re very alive, but dead at the same time.

Maybe stronger men than me just call it “life”.

"davik"

Everyone has a different genetic disposition, personality and life experiences. What may be devastating to one person is a non-issue to another

Its like comparing your your pain to others, its largely pointless and makes no logical sense

If you're alive and handling your chit, then you're strong enough. Regardless of what your mind tells you

Even the strongest people have their demons

Thanks brahs. I’ll stop bumping this one. It was a selfish thread about feels I need to work on. I appreciate your words, sincerely.

Strong Avi to post content correlation.

fuhgeddaboudit

I don't know, they seem kind of contradictory, no? If you were completely disassociated, could you house much anger? Why have remorse if you're indeed a misanthrope?

With all the conflict in the list, the word I think of is "turbulent," and my cope to offer is that I think that's a (comparatively) good thing. To me, it suggests a strife of continued persistence. I feel like a lot of these adjectives (angry, sad, resentful, remorseful) hint at at a dissatisfaction with the way things are and consequently, a desire for change.

The list suggests to me a man beaten and bruised but still thrashing and persisting. With no doubt does the continued struggle seem painful, but this list doesn't suggest a broken man, a hopeless man who has given up, even if he has the temptation. That to me seems a state much worse than a begrudging persistence.

In other words, with context, I don't think those are all bad feelings, even if they feel unpleasant; rather, some of them seem hopeful.

I hope you feel better at any rate.

It’s that mood indigo boyo

Sounds like the feeling of coming down after a hard Pepsi and molly binge

‘Miscer’ encompasses all those op

What about bored and stressed at the same time?

The word you're looking for is Hell...a single word that describes a state of mind this is devoid of anything good.

The words inscribed on the gates of hell:

---- "Through me you pass into the city of woe, through me you pass into eternal pain...abandon all hope ye who enter here."

- Dante's Inferno