I don't know how much longer I can be a cubecuckcel, slim monthly margins after bills make me unmotivated, soul sucking indoor work makes me unmotivated, I think I wanna be a lobsterman but my bills are to high

Fuk

Realest chit ever mane.

I feel so demoralized and lost in life SOLELY because I’m chained to this cube. I never felt depression or hopelessness before in my entire life until THIS became my life. Yet I don’t have the finances, skills or knowledge to earn a living doing anything else.

I can’t believe this is what I have to do every day for the rest of my life. It’s insane. Every single day, the same exact chit, over and over again, spinning on this hamster wheel.

Meaningless.
Unfulfilling.
Soul sucking.

That’s my work. I contribute absolutely nothing to society.

I’m so sick of just “getting through the day” and living for weekends, which fly by before I can even enjoy them. On rare 3 day weekends, I usually start to feel like a human being again around the 3rd day, just in time for freedom to be snatched from me.

My test has likely plummeted, explaining the perpetual exhaustion and lack of motivation. It’s like being in a dystopian nightmare or prison, meanwhile everyone around me in the office has a smile on their face like they’re happy to be here. HOW?!?!?

wagecels gonna wagecel

It blows cawk. If I made $100k this empty existence would probably be worth it. At least I’d be able to visualize an end goal.

I earn $50k/yr, however my actual net pay last year was just over $35k. My expenses were just shy of $29k, but that’s strictly bills and regular expenses, which doesn’t include one offs such as needing an oil change or new battery in the car, or taking my girl out to dinner.

My hopes for an escape are being crushed. This paycheck to paycheck life is brooootal.

Holy **** I feel tired all the time too I think my test plummeted too fml