I see...

We are on opposite coasts, but to be honest, you are physically probably my ideal type. Although I'm smaller than you, I would not feel threatened. I do engage in gay and straight sex, but the commonality is that I am always submissive. I think my soul wants to serve others emotionally and as an extension sexually. My male functions do not work, so I would compensate with oral and obedience (only if you do not abuse me). Sorry, just day dreaming, but probably seeking someone like you as opposed to the brute freaks that get off demeaning and breaking me...

Only on the misc could someone like OP have 1356 rep days after joining

Something tells me that you are attracted to me physically but you don't like it. My experiences has been that this is a very volatile combination for both sexual abuse and just plain physical abuse.

Troll is successful

did you ever try to take testosterone to fix your issues?

Do I have to post my genitals to prove this is not a troll? Seriously, I'm speechless.

Quick answer, is no.

When I was straight, I tried to act very very alpha, almost in an obviously insecure way. Problem was that not only was I a little on the short side at 5'6, I am very thin boned, almost no facial hair, no body hair every. Also, I was small down there. When I got divorced, entered into extreme depression. The choice was not really "do I take testosterone"? It was more like, "do I end it?" or "do I try to get rid of my male urges?". I decided to simply block my male hormones, logic being that if I don't care about women or sex anymore, I would not care about things like my short height, small genitals, etc.

However, after a few months of the blockers, I had an urge to take some female hormones. I only took and take a little, but its having its effect. My mind feels content with myself. The problem is that I cannot find a place in society to fit in as who I am now.

A low sex drive and depression are symptoms of low test, a man needs healthy testosterone levels to function. When I was dieting for a show one time my test crashed hard when I reached about 7% bf, I had little interest in sex an was irritable and short tempered and pretty much exhausted. Once I came back up in weight my feeling of normal came back and I was back at healthy test levels.

I can imagine that being in the low test state as complete hell and I think males need to recognize that and seek treatment. Your mental state also has a lot to do with how you deal with it.

I have very low test.

For what its worth, my testosterone level is 13 ng/DL and my estrogen is 78 pg/ml.

As reference, before I transitioned, my natural body produce testosterone level of 176 ng/DL and my estrogen was 41 pg/ml.

I only take mild dosages of female hormones.

He cannot be sure if there is a God, for he would have to be on the same level as a God to be sure if there is a God, and he can never be on the level of a God, for he is not one.

Correct me if I'm wrong, but even women don't have test that low

I'll take that as a yes.

Its in the mid-range of women from what I am told. My testosterone is in the range of women too, but in the higher end.

He is challenging Jehovah, he said.

Ok, to prove this is not some "troll" or whatever, I will post a picture of me in a pose that the next poster requests.

I know, I have nothing better to do on a Saturday night, trying to heal up from last night so on bodybuilding.com while watching SNL...

Sorry, no. You are very creepy scary though.

He mistakes the human for Jehovah, he said.

So you're saying you got raped and did nothing about it?

You're a trans ******* and you actually dare to call other people "creeps" and "not normal".. Alright lol, idk why don't you just gtfo

Devils props for being kind.

To OP, it seems apparent you have some pyschological issues you need to deal with. Look at the progression of this thread, you're stating you've been raped but haven't taken any actions to reporting it due to how you'll be looked at ? You then proceed to hit on another tranny ITT saying how you'd be able to please them etc and are day dreaming about sex. I don't know how all rape effects every individual but it seems very off thaT you're able to go into great sexual detail of desire immediately after a rape. On top of this forum being the literal polar opposite of a forum that'd be consoling or any type of manner friendly to what you're dealing with and being transsexual. Seems like you're trying to get attention from those who typically disagree with your choices. Seeking validation. All my conjecture is entirely presumptuous but it appears to me with my limited knowledge and info that you're pyschological issues pushed you into becoming transexial and now are not only dealing with physiological issues of hormones you've compounded them with your pyschological ones. Seek help.


Also you're probably just a troll.

What could I do? No one cares if a transgender gets forced, they always think that a transgender inherently was inviting it. Early in my transition, I did complain a few times, but just felt like another layer of abuse.

He wants to be Jehovah, he said.

The validation observation seems to be close. Last night it was three very large, rough guys forcing themselves onto me anally, orally, and in other ways, it was clear they wanted to "break" me. If anything, these type of experiences are pushing me towards relationships where my b@tt is not the center of attention, but something more gentle and loving, a tongue cannot cause pain, that would be ideal for me.

Jehovah is above him, he said.

Cliffs on OP? I feel like I'm missing something here.

Is OP a male to female trans who's on estrogen and will get his dink removed soon, but still lives as a man and complains about creeps and freaks around him? Did I get this right?

Pretty much, he still identifies as a man but for some reason enjoys calling himself trans because he's on 'female' hormones. Enjoys really submissive sex and was apparently taken from a high-class fancy cocktail bar to the underground rape dungeon literally right below that fancy cocktail bar. Complains about not being able to find normal partners and doesn't see the inherent irony in that statment. Also has a shrunken penis.

Try TwoChromosomes bro, they might actually give a ****.

I'm not surprised that a delusional subhuman ******* like yourself would take my genuine disgust as anything different than what it really is.

I always lol when I see this post