This is the only way to redeem yourself... you little wild Bish you...

I have a therapist and a psychiatrist and I think they keep me to the point where I can somehow make it to work and do a great job but the rest is a mess. I have no clue how I've worked for 30 years!!!! No disability.

And I somehow raised a daughter and took care of my aunt and now aging parents. Plus have 2 cats to care for.

Like right now I have no clue how I did any of that.I lost interest in men a year ago so I stopped going on Bumble except for 2 minor slips in the last year.

I'm going through a tough phase of the empty nest syndrome plus caring for aging parents.

I travel a lot and have an upcoming international trip, I sell stuff on eBay, I'm working to get back to tennis as that was always my social outlet so it's hard to have that cut off. Same with hip hop cardio classes. Those were great for my mental health but then my teacher left.

I want to get back into Bible Study.

I have been going to my adventure club events. That was a lifesaver during the teen years.

All of this requires energy. I am exhausted after work and it doesn't take much energy to type while I'm laying on the couch, but I know whenever I have a tennis match or event planned then I actually get off my booty.

I NEVER want to go to the event right before, or meet a friend for coffee, or do anything as I get apathy but once I'm actually there I love it! I'm always tempted to cancel but the adventure club charges you anyways so that forces me to go.

You are nuts going on Bumble if you are married; believe it or not people you know are on that app. Could be coworkers, neighbors, friends, etc.

I know, right? What was really scary was when I matched with a co-worker who was in town working on a project!!! Then I matched with a bunch of dudes in my gym so it was awkward to see them.

Older guys told me that there are a lot of married women on there who also are separated but living together but hoping to money branch so they can move in with a new guy since it's so expensive to live here.

In my mind I was single. I honestly thought that.

I'm in between the size of these 2 pics right now. That's a bikini by VS, by the way.

I just started working out 2 weeks ago after after being off for 2.5 months with pneumonia and bad Covid so I need to tone back up before I post new pics. I can tell my strength is returning as my triceps weren't shaking as much with overhead tricep extensions last night.

I can't decide which is more depressing, the delusion or the reality.

either way, strong mental illness


is the prolapsed anus real?

attention

Why do you think

Why are you still doing blind weigh-ins so many years later? That's normally used in the beginning stages of a client's treatment. Most of the treatment centers out there advocate for open weighing. It's a necessary step towards the recovery process.

It's interesting that my medical group installed an online "Eating Disorder After Visit Summary" a couple of years ago where they block out your weight so you can't see it. Sometimes I'd cheat and look at my weight on the previous "After Visit Summary" that's used for all patients, and then get depressed.

I had no idea about open weighing? I will look that up.

The problem with blind weights is that you can easily go up 10 lbs a year and not really be cognizant of that, whereas that National Weight Registry where people have kept off weight for 3-5 years states that most of the people weigh themselves once a week. That way if it creeps up they can adjust their eating and exercising.

Otherwise in my case I'd just wear leggings and sweats all winter and not really realize I'm gaining.

I just found this:

https://jeatdisord.biomedcentral.com...%20exponential

The study did show that blind weighing was helping in the early stages:

"verall, the majority of participants preferred blind weighing, particularly at the early, acute stage of treatment, whereas open weighing was viewed as more suitable at later stages of recovery. Quantitative analyses found current blind-weighed patients felt significantly less anxiety around being weighed and had greater tolerance of weight uncertainty than current open-weighed patients."

BUT you're right about open weighing in the later stages.

Blind weighing definitely gave me a ton of anxiety when I was pregnant as I remember my Doctor not being happy when I gained 7 lbs in a month. Then I became borderline gestational diabetic, so I really had anxiety and saw an ED Nutritonist.

EVERY ED Nutritionist wants you to eat a lot and she called me Dr. to stop harassing me about weight gain during pregnancy, but she also gave me tips on how to increase my protein like carrying boiled eggs and yogurt to work because when you're pregnant you're ALWAYS HUNGRY lol.

That actually helped because I didn't gain weight my last trimester. Overall I gained 42 lbs and lost it in a year.

Go by the way your bra and panties fit/feel...that's usually a good indicator. Even leggings, sweats, etc...you feel the difference in the waist band.

I would look into open weighing, once a week, stay accountable blah, blah, blah. Less anxiety because you know exactly where you're at.

I'm eating a salad with protein now and it's so much more filling than the veggie smoothies I make in the summer, and fewer calories as they have a lot more sugar. It's so hard to force myself to eat salads now......but good for me.

Yeah I can feel if there is fat rolling over the leggings in my back or not lol. I don't feel anything now, thankfully, with this recent weight loss.

Here's another article:https://www.louisvilleeatlab.com/blo...rder-treatment

What do purple elephants have to do with fear of weight gain? The same principle applies to seeing your weight. Our goal in eating disorder therapy is to help patients become less afraid of gaining weight, to realize that gaining weight is not catastrophic, and to put less over-evaluation on weight and shape. The only way that patients can learn that weight is really not as big of a deal is for them to regularly see their weight!!! Patients then learn that just because they have gained weight (or maybe they really haven’t even gained weight like they predicted they would!) the terrible things that they imagined would happen from gaining weight (or seeing their weight) do not happen.

After all, your weight is just a number – it does not define who you are as a person!

Noone believed u in the first place srs

Took me 10 years to get to 185k rep power, and here you are at what, like 3 years?

Well played, you should teach a course in trolling.

But I wonder what is the value of all those reps compared to what you gave up for them.

You violated the trust of the users of this forum. Now you must leave

JFL @ misctards giving this steaming pile of chit serious responses…

Let the larp, lies and delusions continue!

I know. I can't believe I have that rep power. It's crazy.

Many of my reps are from when I posted in the Positivity thread and when I posted in the Music threads. Some white knights but I don't receive a lot of reps from my threads on the Misc.

Dusty what is goin on? U ok?

Never read one of her anecdotes tbh srs.
Didn't even read anything from op in this thread except the title

Yeah I feel much more stable today. I don't know if it's because I got extra sleep, a workout last night, or what.

Good. Keep it up.

I bought a lot of healthy food to eat up before it goes bad! I'm having raspberries now instead of chips.

We always knew you were a good person but trolled you for the lolz

Time to flush yourself you fat chit

Why do I get trolled so much?

And here I feel bad about telling the dentist I spent 4 minutes minimum brushing three times daily.

Lying ain’t it

Negged

why must you turn my office into a house of lies

Op have you ever tried cognitive behavioral therapy?

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK279297/
The dentist as soon as he looks in your mouth

I’m actually in Dialectical Behavioral Therapy which uses CBT but adds in the mindfulness part.

I’ve taken a year of classes/groups and I’ve been seeing the DBT therapist for 6 years now. She really helped my relationship with my daughter, for me to stop being obsessed with men and to learn skills to manage work anxiety.