[SRS] Depression Discussion and Support Thread Part III

06-03-2020, 01:53 PM

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Originally Posted By BigTimePlayer⏩

Because a lot of people can just talk nonsense about any subject. You can mention that you ate pizza today to someone than some people can literally go on & on about food for an hour. I mean to each their own but I don’t give a **** about conversations like that. I don’t know how they get excited over the most boring & pointless conversations.

Thats the thing man they just small talk too much and a i can't do that. I'm not going to stand around listening to people talk about their pets or food or some netflix show for an hour man. But I can't even find one person I like talking to. I just tolerate ppl.

06-03-2020, 03:33 PM

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Originally Posted By eod8989⏩

Thats the thing man they just small talk too much and a i can't do that. I'm not going to stand around listening to people talk about their pets or food or some netflix show for an hour man. But I can't even find one person I like talking to. I just tolerate ppl.

I think I’m just too far gone set in my ways. Being alone for too long just ****ed everything up in terms of how I talk to people & my mindset on things. I feel like I’m just existing now & not living anymore.

06-03-2020, 03:42 PM

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Originally Posted By BigTimePlayer⏩

I think I’m just too far gone set in my ways. Being alone for too long just ****ed everything up in terms of how I talk to people & my mindset on things. I feel like I’m just existing now & not living anymore.

That goes away in like a week or a month at most if you actually socialize. You get used to socializing again. But you have to know the right people and have the right environment.

06-03-2020, 04:36 PM

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Originally Posted By eod8989⏩

That goes away in like a week or a month at most if you actually socialize. You get used to socializing again. But you have to know the right people and have the right environment.

It just gets beyond old feeling unwell. I wish I was an extrovert so I could just naturally be able to talk to anyone & feel excited about it. I’m always feeling tired & bored most of the time.

06-03-2020, 04:55 PM

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Originally Posted By BigTimePlayer⏩

It just gets beyond old feeling unwell. I wish I was an extrovert so I could just naturally be able to talk to anyone & feel excited about it. I’m always feeling tired & bored most of the time.

Same dude, when i am around people i feel lethargic a lot of times and bored if i have to engage in conversation. I don't know how people get social lives and stay social 24/7. I need time to recharge.

06-03-2020, 09:24 PM

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I only feel good when attractive women are talking to me. When dudes hit me up I just don't care and can't bother to even humor them. Like I'm so lonely but it has to be a girl or it doesn't work. And the girl has to be talking to me. If she just has sex with me but doesn't act feminine and talk to me, it does nothing. I don't even get it.

06-03-2020, 09:37 PM

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Originally Posted By eod8989⏩

Does anyone here just like not talk unless spoken to?

I've been like this my whole life

And even if people do talk to me I just say a sentence and go back to being quiet

I dont understand how someone can be like this all the time

this is pretty much me. i used to just pay prostitutes to talk to me while I sat there quietly and it worked for my loneliness somehow but they all quit and now I'm alone. Being a quiet man sucks. I wish men had other stuff to offer but girls only care about being entertained by a guy socially. Looks and money won't make up for being quiet not that I have any of those things. I have no stories to tell or any interests to talk about. I'm literally worthless to women. It sucks because I know a woman is the only thing that can make me happy (it has in the past). I'm just not cut out for this world I don't think.

06-03-2020, 10:07 PM

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do u guys get disassociation/derealization. i've been severely detached like visually and perception-wise since my injury, but the concussion doctor and the neuro-psychologist said it's actually my anxiety or depression that is leaking into physical symptoms like dissociative feeling and vision. i thought it was my eyes that are bad but a lot of it is probably my anxiety.

Do you mean literally get the sensation of detachment from what your senses are telling you? I believe that's actually a symptom of something...simple too like electrolyte deficiency or some **** like that.

If it's like metaphorical where you feel removed from reality....like a strong uncomfortable realization of being in a physical body in space type sensation....and your brain is telling your limbs to move and that this is all a weird 'reality' we are living in that no one will ever figure out...that type of feels, I've had a couple of those bouts of. It's mighty anxiety inducing but I'm a cynical/negative sob 24/7 so it's really just a minor blip on my misery radar.

06-04-2020, 11:29 AM

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Originally Posted By imbored21⏩

this is pretty much me. i used to just pay prostitutes to talk to me while I sat there quietly and it worked for my loneliness somehow but they all quit and now I'm alone. Being a quiet man sucks. I wish men had other stuff to offer but girls only care about being entertained by a guy socially. Looks and money won't make up for being quiet not that I have any of those things. I have no stories to tell or any interests to talk about. I'm literally worthless to women. It sucks because I know a woman is the only thing that can make me happy (it has in the past). I'm just not cut out for this world I don't think.

Theres just nothing to talk about anymore man. People don't like quiet men. There used to be all kinds of culture and stuff to talk about but ppl don't care about anything anymore besides kids or work

06-04-2020, 12:19 PM

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Originally Posted By eod8989⏩

Theres just nothing to talk about anymore man. People don't like quiet men. There used to be all kinds of culture and stuff to talk about but ppl don't care about anything anymore besides kids or work

There’s things they talk about but those things suck now. Sports & movies just aren’t the same anymore so it’s hard to be excited about talking about them anymore. Even video games while still decent aren’t what they used to be overall. I sometimes get a been there played that feeling with a lot of games now where they don’t offer much new in terms of gameplay. It just feels like I’m playing constant sequels a lot of the time since so many games have the same gameplay mechanics. I feel like everything has reached it’s peak long ago in terms of any sort of entertainment.

06-04-2020, 12:33 PM

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I just don't know what to do. I have let myself get to this point. I am overweight. I feel ashamed, disgusted of myself and of what I have done to get here. I don't know what to do. I try and I try to lose weight, but I always end up binge eating and getting more depressed. I don't know who to talk to, the shame I feel is unbearable. I just don't know what to do. I don't know I I'll ever be able to get out of this mess. I am so damn ugly.

06-04-2020, 12:49 PM

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Originally Posted By eod8989⏩

Theres just nothing to talk about anymore man. People don't like quiet men. There used to be all kinds of culture and stuff to talk about but ppl don't care about anything anymore besides kids or work

people just talk about restaurants and netflix. maybe their kids/pets or their cupons at cvs. it's ****ing lame as **** but for some reason it's fun to talk about with attractive women but no one else. idk. life is weird.

06-04-2020, 01:59 PM

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Originally Posted By BigTimePlayer⏩

There’s things they talk about but those things suck now. Sports & movies just aren’t the same anymore so it’s hard to be excited about talking about them anymore. Even video games while still decent aren’t what they used to be overall. I sometimes get a been there played that feeling with a lot of games now where they don’t offer much new in terms of gameplay. It just feels like I’m playing constant sequels a lot of the time since so many games have the same gameplay mechanics. I feel like everything has reached it’s peak long ago in terms of any sort of entertainment.

Exactly man nothing new is happening and when people talk about movies or Netflix I just get bored. People at work will have long conversations about their kids or food and stuff and I just cant do that. Idk anyone who talks about games or wrestling or anything either. Its just boring stuff every single time

06-04-2020, 02:02 PM

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Originally Posted By imbored21⏩

people just talk about restaurants and netflix. maybe their kids/pets or their cupons at cvs. it's ****ing lame as **** but for some reason it's fun to talk about with attractive women but no one else. idk. life is weird.

Thats all people do is talk about their kids or netflix or restaurants man. You have to have a boring life to connect with notmies. They arent into interesting ****.

06-04-2020, 06:38 PM

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it sounds like bull**** but i really can't function when I don't have constant female attention. I'm so depressed right now I feel like giving up and dying.

06-04-2020, 06:46 PM

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Originally Posted By imbored21⏩

it sounds like bull**** but i really can't function when I don't have constant female attention. I'm so depressed right now I feel like giving up and dying.

I fap so much i don't even care anymore man. I think porn fuked me up. They make it super addicting or something so it fries your dopamine receptors.

06-04-2020, 06:57 PM

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Originally Posted By eod8989⏩

I fap so much i don't even care anymore man. I think porn fuked me up. They make it super addicting or something so it fries your dopamine receptors.

idk my sex drive is completely gone but i have but i sstill crave female social attention. I don't even know why. it makes no sense at all.

06-05-2020, 12:45 AM

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Everything just keeps getting worse. My second older sister separated from her husband and @3 weeks ago, he passed away. She didn't tell me how, but pretty sure he drank himself to death on purpose. He was an alcoholic. My eldest sister is also an alcoholic, needs a liver transplant is on life support right now. They already had to revive her once, but she is supposedly stable now. I am an alcoholic and am trying to stop. There is not really support for it here on BB.com, but reddit has a whole sub section that is very active and helpful. /r/stopdrinking. This is my first post on stopdrinking, I just wanted to have it here too

I drink @ 25oz of Scotch every single night for at least a year now and maybe 18oz for the last 2 years. Before that, I drank a lot, but it was 2-3 days a week.

I get shakes and tremors @ 5 to 7 hours after waking and not drinking. I haven't really had hangovers for a long time now. I think I also have alcoholic's lungs, I get short of breath easily. I workout a lot and was in great shape before this Covid lock down started and am not in bad shape now except for the breathing. A year ago was when I noted I am breathing heavy for stuff that never winded me before, but it wasn't till a month or so before the lock down started that I was breathing heavy for just going up a flight of stairs that I had to take a seat to recover.

I don't know if this is day 1. Am just going to start tapering down, ordering an audio book of This Naked Life once I figure out how to play that on my phone, will be lurking and do a lot of reading here. The plan is to only drink 18oz tonight.

I tried to stop @ 7 months ago, it didn't go very well. I really need to stop.

No cliffs, you don't have to read. I just wanted it here.

06-05-2020, 07:49 AM

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feel like im developing a speech impediment from lack of socialization all these years. since living alone i have beggan talking to myself excessively and notice i slur my words and cant enunciate certain sounds. also i use so many filler words like "uh" and "like." i have the verbal fluency of a toddler. it's depressing

06-05-2020, 01:33 PM

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Anyone else feel like they can’t accept who they are? I just hate almost everything about myself in terms of being introverted when I wish I was an extrovert. Also of not being good at anything so I’m stuck working ****ty jobs for the rest of my life. Like am I supposed to just accept that I’m going to be wasting literally years at some job I don’t want to do? It’s just very hard for me to accept any of this & it sucks.

06-05-2020, 02:21 PM

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Originally Posted By BigTimePlayer⏩

Anyone else feel like they can’t accept who they are? I just hate almost everything about myself in terms of being introverted when I wish I was an extrovert. Also of not being good at anything so I’m stuck working ****ty jobs for the rest of my life. Like am I supposed to just accept that I’m going to be wasting literally years at some job I don’t want to do? It’s just very hard for me to accept any of this & it sucks.

being an introverted man seems like such a death sentence. i see tons of quiet older guys who all have families and i just don't get it. maybe they were more social when younger? i really dont understand

06-05-2020, 02:56 PM

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Originally Posted By imbored21⏩

being an introverted man seems like such a death sentence. i see tons of quiet older guys who all have families and i just don't get it. maybe they were more social when younger? i really dont understand

I don't know any introverted people that have friends man. I know of some introverts but nobody likes socializing with them and they just stay to themselves. And those people may have met years ago. It's much harder to make friends or date these days.

06-05-2020, 03:16 PM

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Originally Posted By eod8989⏩

I don't know any introverted people that have friends man. I know of some introverts but nobody likes socializing with them and they just stay to themselves. And those people may have met years ago. It's much harder to make friends or date these days.

Yes, exactly. I have a few people I know that I consider friends but I’ve known them for many years. I just text with them now 99% of the time though since they either live too far or are married. So I’m just by myself almost everyday of the year outside of the 1 or 2 days a year on average where I actually hang out with someone. It’s impossible in today’s society to make friends unless you’re a natural extrovert. Everyone lives in their own bubble these days with cellphones & social media.

06-05-2020, 04:06 PM

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Originally Posted By BigTimePlayer⏩

Yes, exactly. I have a few people I know that I consider friends but I’ve known them for many years. I just text with them now 99% of the time though since they either live too far or are married. So I’m just by myself almost everyday of the year outside of the 1 or 2 days a year on average where I actually hang out with someone. It’s impossible in today’s society to make friends unless you’re a natural extrovert. Everyone lives in their own bubble these days with cellphones & social media.

Even if you are an extrovert what is there to talk about? This is what i don't understand. I have some social skills and can be extroverted if i really want to but there is literally nothing to talk about with strangers. I barely even talk to my coworkers. There is just nothing to talk about. All i hear is people talking about boring stuff or just creating drama. Nothing ever interesting is ever brought up.

So how the hell do people make actual friends now days?

06-05-2020, 05:38 PM

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always feel terrible in the evening. I start feeling better when it gets dark but 2pm-7:30PM I'm just so depressed all the time. I don't get it. It's like this everyday.

06-05-2020, 07:06 PM

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Originally Posted By eod8989⏩

Even if you are an extrovert what is there to talk about? This is what i don't understand. I have some social skills and can be extroverted if i really want to but there is literally nothing to talk about with strangers. I barely even talk to my coworkers. There is just nothing to talk about. All i hear is people talking about boring stuff or just creating drama. Nothing ever interesting is ever brought up.

So how the hell do people make actual friends now days?

I don’t know man. People make friends by doing boring typical ****. I never had interest in going to bars/clubs really. Anytime I was at one I always felt out of my element & would have rather been home. It seems a lot of people met their friends through bars/clubs, through college or in high school. If you don’t have anyone to hang out with at work or no cousins to meet people through than you’re ****ed. I don’t talk to any family anymore like I used to, hate bars & clubs, had the wrong friends in high school & never met anyone to have a life long friendship with anyone at college & there’s no one to hang out with at my job. So what am I supposed to do.

06-05-2020, 07:49 PM

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Originally Posted By BigTimePlayer⏩

I don’t know man. People make friends by doing boring typical ****. I never had interest in going to bars/clubs really. Anytime I was at one I always felt out of my element & would have rather been home. It seems a lot of people met their friends through bars/clubs, through college or in high school. If you don’t have anyone to hang out with at work or no cousins to meet people through than you’re ****ed. I don’t talk to any family anymore like I used to, hate bars & clubs, had the wrong friends in high school & never met anyone to have a life long friendship with anyone at college & there’s no one to hang out with at my job. So what am I supposed to do.

Same i feel out of my element everywhere too. Like i was just placed in a world i don't belong. I can't keep switching jobs or moving just to make friends though.

06-06-2020, 12:39 PM

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I was thinking back on my life a bit before & thinking I had so many people to talk to at one time in my life now I have nobody. It’s so damn depressing by how things can just change so much where no one gives a **** about you anymore. Even family I used to talk to a lot I don’t even see them or talk to them anymore. Like wtf happened to everybody? Why did things turn out this way for? It’s so damn depressing how people can just stop talking to you like you don’t exist anymore.

06-06-2020, 12:58 PM

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Originally Posted By BigTimePlayer⏩

I was thinking back on my life a bit before & thinking I had so many people to talk to at one time in my life now I have nobody. It’s so damn depressing by how things can just change so much where no one gives a **** about you anymore. Even family I used to talk to a lot I don’t even see them or talk to them anymore. Like wtf happened to everybody? Why did things turn out this way for? It’s so damn depressing how people can just stop talking to you like you don’t exist anymore.

Same idk what happened but i remember around 2015-2016 i was always talking to people and everything was fun. Could literally just sit around and watch American Idol, WWE, NBA playoffs or something and everyone was so entertained. Now days it's like nobody cares about anything anymore or every topic gets heated. Something is just off. It's like i already know if talk about something with someone they will be very opinionated on it or things will get heated fast.