I was a major loser in high school. I'm not exactly a chad now but back then I liked every girl that did more than just smile and say hi, and girls who did like me I scared off because I got too excited and acted off-puttingly. It didn't help that I had lost all my old friends because my mum wasn't keen on continuing in that region. The junior school was fine but the senior/high school was of bad repute, so we switched neighborhoods to go to a different school.

Of people I did know at the new school, one was my cousin (same age). I had never gone to the same school as her until then, and she did everything in her power to be nice to me, make sure people liked me even though I was a geek. I developed a crush on her around 14 because of these things, screw girls just for being nice to losers eh. It didn't help that one day she was visiting my mom (my parents were divorced) and she started talking about girls she knew doing sexual things with boys and I had no idea what a "blowjob" entailed so I asked her. She didn't go into detail, just one line but I guess it planted something in my head.

At a family party (still 14 years old), while everyone was saying goodbye I was dizzy so must have been on some high and I asked her for a goodbye kiss. She told her friends at school and that was it, I was suddenly the kid who might fancy his cousin. She actually kept treating me normally, but I guess even as a kid I knew I had crossed a line and fortunately I sat next to a hot, flirtatious girl in a new class and then it was all about her and everyone forgot about that kiss-request. "He doesn't like his cousin he's into _____________" They became friends too, so going to my cousin's house meant seeing that girl, I confided in my cousin about her and she convinced that girl to give me a chance. Which lasted two days btw. I was so nervous about actually getting a chance I became a vegetable, and it would be a few more years until I could act normal towards a girl.