Fear and myself. I’m close to overcoming both completely tho. It’s like trying to tip over a vending machine...its not just one push, takes some back and forth struggle to get it done.

Some good stuff in here. The reason I posted this was that I found most people have tons of problems, issues, past experiences, mental blocks, that are holding them back.

The thing is we look towards people like Jordan Peterson, or other personal development guys, to get on track and start good habits. However, habits mean jack **** when you haven't even dealt with the real issues. I became risk averse because the amount of times people have told me I wasn't good enough, or always did something wrong, would cause most people to have melt downs. Because I became risk averse, I became complacent. Complacency equals laziness.

So hopefully as you guys and gals post this, you realize there's something deeper rooted that you have to stand up to and come to terms with, or tell to fuk off, before you can even begin the process of being the best you can be. That's what I've gone through and realized the past 2 years.

When you don't acknowledge it, I think that is when people eventually have midlife crisises, excessive depression, etc. This is all speculation, but this is exactly what I found trying to start all these habits, get things going to attack my goals, etc. I always ended up stuck, and revert in certain aspects. Well I never came to terms with my past and why I would revert back to old habits or be risk averse in life.


Hope everyone has an awesome 2020 and crushes it.

Yes I read every comment. Too much to respond to all of them. I can relate to a lot of them. srs.

I feel I did all I could considering my pleb circumstances.

I tried hard to make it in my 20s and failed. But at least I know that I tried. Now I'm just freelancing working minimal hours (around 20/week) in a dead-end profession. I'd work more if I had something to spend the money on (honest, hardworking, attractive young whores) but the P4P market almost completely died around 2014 in this country. I've already travelled to all the places I really wanted to see back in my 20s. I have a paid off apartment located downtown. My woman pays the bills. So I have nothing to work for except food, clothes and orange juice.

My only goals in life now are to bloat, mog and coom as much as possible before I LDAR.


And again, remember your circumstances before you start beating yourself up.

For example, I could say: "Shouldn't have believed the fake natties and fake fitness industry preying on insecure young men and should've hopped on orange juice in my late teens"

Yeah, sure, these days orange juice is easy to acquire. But try getting some legit OJ 20 years ago in the heavily regulated, unathletic, unaesthetic, immigrant chithole that is the Greater Toronto Area. All that was readily available was useless overpriced GNC trash which I was wasting my money on anyway and getting zero results. Furthermore I was too busy slaving away and saving money to actually focus 100% or even 80% on the lifting lifestyle.

Realistically I could have hopped on the sauce around the age of 25 (instead of 28) and I really regret that I didn't. Three more years of living in god mode (youth + height + shredded juicy physique) and slaying young sloots would have been a real blessing and worked wonders for my mind and spirit.

Because you know what, for us sub-8 broke plebs the best and easiest way to ascend and taste divinity (if we're not midgets) is by attaining a divine natty physique while we're still young.

i'm not smart enough or not willing to work hard enough

plus limited hours in the day

my self

I'm 28 and I can't wait to get on the good ****, I give zero ****s at this point lol.

There is realistically not much to be done for me bro. Personality disorders are somewhat permanent. I can understand it, see why it developed, see the flaws in the thinking, but ultimately it is what it is. I'm never going to get what I want, but I'll keep on trying anyhow. At least until my parents are dead

What's holding me back is my "Mindset"... I'm working on this right now in 2020...

"Mindset" is the #1 important aspect of success that you don't get taught on

Also reading the book the "Psychology of Success".

boom

Holy f are you me.

Anxiety brahs, u ever get a feeling like you can't initiate a swallow? Legit might be my worst symptom, has ruined many nights out for me. Brb having a mini panic attack every time I try to swallow food in public

I have NO social anxiety btw, just general. I can talk for hours with anyone

Being less is more fun & relaxing.

This sounds OCDish

-Self doubt
-Low self esteem
-Fear of speaking my mind

Writing and rehearsing music. Look, my version of content is putting food on the table and a roof over my head, then enjoying what I mentioned in sentence one. My life is not that complicated, on purpose.

That sounds like a nice life tbh. Much better than partying, going out, and drinking every weekend.

But not performing. Want to expand on that?

Not getting up early enough. I tend to work the later "shift" so to speak although we don't have that. Sometimes I don't come in until 10am and often don't leave until 10pm but usually earlier than that. Days that I do come in early, I tend to be much more productive in the same number of hours worked. This and keeping focused at work. Being paid by the job, production determines my pay. Days I come in early, and stay focused, I kill it all day and could probably make six figures but I don't. There were other obligation which have changed recently but I'm just not over it so it might take a while.

Time. Not lack of time. Just the time it takes.

Geoengineering, Solar radiation management, Stratospheric Aerosol Injection, and the dimming of the sun along with EMF for me.

I cannot function properly without crystal clear blue skies and the majestical sun with its harmonious rays.

Dead srs as well,

The last time humanity had weeks on ends of blue skies and sunlight has to be around 2008/09ish.

Im more or less happy with myself & the direction im heading. If there's anything that holds me back - it's the tendency to get passive/check out in certain situations. Working on that right now and I think i can address that.

It is!Performing isn't a necessity for personal fulfillment. I wouldn't feel any less satisfied if I wrote something beautiful and it was never heard by anyone. I get that it's kind of masturbatory when I put it that way. Hmm.

I do find magic in collaboration, but collaboration doesn't always need a finale.