Turning into a fat fuk due to all the catering work is bringing in (all 6 days last week), no gym, no place to study outside my home (and away from my 2 Rugrats and anxiety stricken lady) and just totally bombed my midterm. Kinda bent, it's the first time I've failed an exam in the last 3 years I've been taking school seriously, I might not be able to recover. Debating on whether to ask prof for redo, however that goes against principles. Risk fukking up my grad time or throw out principles...ugh...

Once this is all said and done,

I will NEVER EVER listen or trust the establishment ever again. I cannot believe they think that they can dictate our lives completely. They have played us for fool. They think they can have total control over us. People need to realize the ruling class and the experts people have so much faith in are just like me and you; they have faults, they sin, can be corrupted and have an agenda. My quality of life is more important than economic figure EVER made nor do I care about the establishment and expert opinion, I will live life as I see fit. No other man shall tell me what to do, when to do and how to do. My adversary isn’t my fellow man but the ruling elite/class, establishment and the annoying noisy authority.

I’m pissed as fuk! I’m currently cutting fabric and elastic to sew reusable face masks for the hospital my sister works at. They’re running really low on supplies and have no idea when they’ll be getting more. They’re asking anyone who can sew to make them. They’ve been told they can use bandanas like a fukking third world country when they run out!
I’ll be angry sewing as many as possible tomorrow so I can get them in the mail to express ship to her.

Fuk how nasty people are right now on social media and real life:
-deactivated fb because people are posting nonsense every 5 minutes about the virus, mainly the ones who are doing it are people that had not been working on government benefits before the virus started that think they are high and mighty for staying home judging people that still have to work

-people are getting murdered and robbing for food and basic needs in my small town

-everyone is getting nasty in public and self centered

Fuk closing things that help me out like
-my eye doctor and dentist
-my A.A. meetings
-my iud appointment
-the stores close early so I couldn’t get midol the other night

Annoyed my step kids mother is letting all 6 of her kids run around the neighborhood she lives in with all the other kids and go to friends houses cause she doesn’t want them hanging around her three bed room house all day (three are my husbands) lord knows if they are carriers, we have weakened immune systems

On the flip side
-at least I have a home gym and hiking in my backyard
-my husband is getting paid time off when they shut down a work site till they find a new one, but he’s drinking more, merp yet happy and cancer free though. Loved his 49ers signed jersey for our anniversary and so did the kids
-I can work from home and have zoom aa meetings
-no new corona cases in my area
-break from ********
-I know how to bake bread, we have lots of meat, eggs, canned and dried stuff, ice cream, coffee, firewood and everything we’ll need
-got a good home gym in time

I don’t even get to stay home because my flight school found a loophole to stay open. Also I’m sick (not Coronavirus) and it’s so incredibly awkward to be coughing around people right now.

On the bright side there’s much less traffic so I can come home more often.

fuk this mothafukin virus

most importantly also fuk you OP! cuz priorities