I'm 21 and still deal with this sht. Around a circle of people, 5 or more people, i feel like an outsider. And im socially awkward and silent. If im around 1-3 people, then im fine. Im comfortable and social, and it's all good vibes. With only 1-3 people, the conversations are more intimate and they focus on you. When you're around many people it's easy to get ignored. there will always be people with bigger personalities than you who will get played attention to and guys like me get pushed to the side and ignored. I also hate the nightlife and clubbing etc. All with a lot of people and i feel inferior to others. I tried out that scene at 19 to get a taste and since i was legal to go to these night spots, i thought it was cool. Then realized quickly that i hated it. Im a music artist and when im on stage is when im super confident. Performing in front of many people is the only exception. But if im just in the crowd and blending in and normal like the others, that's when i get bad social anxiety. But on stage in front of lots, i love it. But otherwise it's better to stay locked in my room as much as possible and be alone. It reduces my heartache, and rage. How do i cure my social anxiety?

I'm 21 and still deal with this sht. Around a circle of people, 5 or more people, i feel like an outsider. And im socially awkward and silent. If im around 1-3 people, then im fine. Im comfortable and social, and it's all good vibes. With only 1-3 people, the conversations are more intimate and they focus on you. When you're around many people it's easy to get ignored. there will always be people with bigger personalities than you who will get played attention to and guys like me get pushed to the side and ignored. I also hate the nightlife and clubbing etc. All with a lot of people and i feel inferior to others. I tried out that scene at 19 to get a taste and since i was legal to go to these night spots, i thought it was cool. Then realized quickly that i hated it. Im a music artist and when im on stage is when im super confident. Performing in front of many people is the only exception. But if im just in the crowd and blending in and normal like the others, that's when i get bad social anxiety. But on stage in front of lots, i love it. But otherwise it's better to stay locked in my room as much as possible and be alone. It reduces my heartache, and rage. How do i cure my social anxiety?

I'm 21 and still deal with this sht. Around a circle of people, 5 or more people, i feel like an outsider. And im socially awkward and silent. If im around 1-3 people, then im fine. Im comfortable and social, and it's all good vibes. With only 1-3 people, the conversations are more intimate and they focus on you. When you're around many people it's easy to get ignored. there will always be people with bigger personalities than you who will get played attention to and guys like me get pushed to the side and ignored. I also hate the nightlife and clubbing etc. All with a lot of people and i feel inferior to others. I tried out that scene at 19 to get a taste and since i was legal to go to these night spots, i thought it was cool. Then realized quickly that i hated it. Im a music artist and when im on stage is when im super confident. Performing in front of many people is the only exception. But if im just in the crowd and blending in and normal like the others, that's when i get bad social anxiety. But on stage in front of lots, i love it. But otherwise it's better to stay locked in my room as much as possible and be alone. It reduces my heartache, and rage. How do i cure my social anxiety?

Not true. Im never the center of attention. It's the complete opposite. I just want people to respect me enough to acknowledge my existence.

You ******* ss piece of garbage. You LOOK like you got alzheimer's

For almost my whole life i've been depressed. throughout school i was depressed. Afterwards still depressed. Still depressed. Suicidal, anxiety. An introvert, an outsider no one has ever payed any mind. The negative sht that occurs weighs heavier than the positive. And negative sht happens much more often to me than positive anyway. Im tired of feeling like sht all day everyday. A big ss boulder on my chest that can't be budged.

For almost my whole life i've been depressed. throughout school i was depressed. Afterwards still depressed. Still depressed. Suicidal, anxiety. An introvert, an outsider no one has ever payed any mind. The negative sht that occurs weighs heavier than the positive. And negative sht happens much more often to me than positive anyway. Im tired of feeling like sht all day everyday. A big ss boulder on my chest that can't be budged.

For almost my whole life i've been depressed. throughout school i was depressed. Afterwards still depressed. Still depressed. Suicidal, anxiety. An introvert, an outsider no one has ever payed any mind. The negative sht that occurs weighs heavier than the positive. And negative sht happens much more often to me than positive anyway. Im tired of feeling like sht all day everyday. A big ss boulder on my chest that can't be budged.

It seems like that. A lot of white girls posting rappers, and shirtless black guys on their social media. And nowadays almost all the girls in rap videos are white. Is it just me or are a lot of white girls in to black guys?

Im 21 and i literally NEVER go out. Just to my job. i have no friends and i never go out on weekends. I go to work then i go straight home. There's a street festival in my city this weekend and im not going out. In my country, independence day passed earlier this month. People were out watching fireworks by the river, and doing other stuff. On that day i stayed in my room too.
I have no motivation do anything.
I never go out, i hate nightlife. Clubbing, partying. I dislike people in general.

The keyboard changed my words *TALLER. NOT talker.

I Certainly prefer the cute/attractive girls who are "fun sized." like a foot shorter than me. 5'-5'1 is perfect. Makes me feel dominant.

I don't like to break code, but i did. Their is a guy who was talking sht behind my back weeks ago. Saying im rude and an sshole and my personality is off putting. I found that out through someone else. Then i confronted him but via texting and we had an argument. Then i had to see him today. It was the first time since weeks that he talked this trash about me. we were in the same location. So when i saw him i just looked at him but then he stuck out his hand and was like "what's up" and i shook his hand and said "nothing much" and kept walking. I should've just ignored him and his handshake. now i feel like a poosy for responding to him

U pssy bruh?

Just curious. Is the chances high after dating over time?

STFU ***got

I'm a super introvert and very drained from social situations. Thats why i stay in often, an feel comfortable alone chilling. The latest example of exhaustion was when i went to this city festival last night. There was a lot of people out. Food stands, djs and loud music. People dancing. I got there at 10:30pm. I was dancing and talking to people by the Dj table. I was having a good time. But by 12, my energy died down and i was ready to go back home. And at 12:30am i left. Idk why im life this. Whenever i go to a nightspot in town, im always the first to leave. I leave early because zone out and have no pleasure anymore to stick around. Is there any way to change it or do i have to accept that i am like this?

introverted is a man made restriction used to label beta low test nu-males. No man should be an "introvert" beta cuck.

introvert == "i dont have any friends to do fun things with"

p.s. fun things doesn't always mean partying and getting wasted