I just drank a half bottle of vodka, drunk can barely keep my eyes open.

I hate being a female. I wish I could be as strong as a steroid junkie gym muscle man but know this will never be true.

I feel as though my role in this world is as a hole for men to use.

I blew my boss this morning while he was on a conference call.

I took it in the butt by three guys after a workout in the gym locker room when they dragged me into the men's steamroom.

I cam home and my neighbor knocked on the door demanding sex, I said I had a long day. He pushed the door open, took off my clothes, spanked me until I cried and then came inside. I thought he was done, then he started to try to push his hand into me to teach me a lesson to "obey" quicker next time. Yes, we have sex every few months, but still felt invaded.

This is a mans world and I'm learning women are here to serve as objects of lust.