I knew it was wrong. But, I hit rock bottom and just wanted to be at peace after the abuse I had to experience when I was growing up. I was engulfed in darkness just like my heart was. I didn't think their was another solution besides suicide. But, I'm still here and I will never let myself get that low ever again.

Good thread OP.

Never been suicidal but have definitely been depressed for long stretches. I used to kind of think anybody that committed suicide was just weak and selfish..but I, along with everybody else, will never understand what they are/were going through. It's really tragic.

Every time I have a night where I am feeling extremely low, anxious or generally depressed - I always think this is what some people have to deal with on a day to day basis which I know I wouldn't be able to cope with myself.

Life can become really ****ty, really quick. If you fall into recurring negative thought patterns and beating yourself up at every opportunity, I guess it just becomes a constant hell with no light to walk towards at the end of the tunnel.

I know this thread was created with good intentions, Bobby. But unfortunately we do not allow suicide discussion. I have no choice but to close this thread. I appreciate what you were trying to do though.

I'll leave this link below:

https://forum.obnoxiousbrutes.com/showt...hp?t=174721631