And for the worse.

I’ve been doing some self reflection lately, and I realized I used to be a much happier, funnier, more charismatic, witty, cheeky etc dude, just fun as hell to be around. Have always been very introverted and reserved but still when it was time to socialize I’d have a blast and make others have a blast as well. Kind of saw myself as an amazing dude.



But nowadays, I’m just way more serious about everything. My sense of humor is almost dead, mainly because I just don’t feel like laughing or making others laugh/have a good time. I don’t know why it is but I simply am a bit more of an ******* now.

I don’t know if it’s because i woke up to how people really are and human nature, getting more into philosophy and aligning with the more depressing currents of philosophy (like determinism, lack of free will etc) or I’m simply maturing (badly), but I don’t like it.

I’m also noticing the same in some other miscers that used to be more laidback/chill/cheeky and are now taking everything serious or personal, or showing their frustration trough their worlds very clearly.


I’ve always been a blessed person in many ways, but what I liked about myself the most has always been my personality and how special I though I was, or what a positive force I was to anybody that I connected with. So I need to find a way to change it back ASAP. You attract what you are, and I don’t want to attract numb/indifferent energies to my life.


Anybody feeling the same ?