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brahs. phuck this. i'm losing my v card, neg me to oblivion or rep to valhalaaa
05-14-2016, 04:18 AM
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In for riveting tale
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05-14-2016, 05:56 AM
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just be fukkin thirsty and you will get laid in no time srs, most FA stop after being rejected once just be a caveman and crave that pussy m8
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05-19-2016, 01:03 AM
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this is post 999. the bitterness on this forum is too much for me. i thought it was tamable, but it's tiresome and uninteresting. i will take my leave till my goal is reached, saving that 1000th post for the big v . **** the abyss, i look away now
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05-19-2016, 01:04 AM
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Loading potato cannon. Red or green apples?
Hair longer than your imaginary girlfriends.
07-06-2016, 11:12 PM
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Asked out my first girl to a movie! She was working at a convenience store late night, and she just looked at me like she saw past it all to the person within. and i felt an appreciation for that. glasses, deep tan, like hispanic. with a gentle smile c: Dark hair that was long, but tied up if I remember correctly. A healthy physique about her, not in any way fat. Cleaaar skin, which I appreciate now. Eyebrows on point, thick and darker than usual. Maybe filled in a slight bit. Dark, warm eyes behind her spectacles shone with an equally welcoming small smile. I think I saw her before, and asked her where the chips were....
I sat in a chair at the far back. I tell myself, you have to jump when the moment is scary, otherwise you stay in the same place for the rest of your life. I got up, and walked towards the front, to her.
There were three people in line.
I went straight past her. :/
Shown in the video taken:
I left the store at 11 and decided to come back when nobody would be there,
I drove for a bit on the main street, yelling incoherently, listening to coldplay, and telling myself i deserved this. i, who spent weeks eating green and healthy, running cardio, lifting, and keeping my skin clear and healthy. my warddrobe ammassed from all around the world. my hairstyle, my smile. it was when i turned a u-turn and headed back without stopping did i set myself back on course, to her once more.
at 11:36 I returned with much torn emotions. She was gone. I asked the lady who now covered her position and in broken english, this nice older lady started saying my girl was on break. I came back after running across the street to pee at another 24 hr spot, it was midnight when I returned for the third and final time. I had looked through the few cars in the massive parking lot to see if she was kipping out in her car, but she wasn't.
Through the door I went, then I saw her, at the far end and she saw me. She turned to walk down one aisle towards me c: and I jogged up the adjacent aisle toward her
she gave me a smile as she did before,
and I asked her:
hey i was her and asked about the bathroom
'yea'
and um . i was just wondering if you...if you wanted to watch a movie some time?
silence. I quivered. I waited. I deserved this, love.
'Aw...' she goes. 'I'm married!' with another smile.
oh you're married?
'I'm flattered, yes I am!'
oh, alright, heh, bye *i turn to leave.
i'm okay with this. i'm not happy, i'm not pained. i'm okay. a marriage is one hell of a reason to be unavailable. i'll learn. i'll return.
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asked a girl to the movies and she said no
I sat in a chair at the far back. I tell myself, you have to jump when the moment is scary, otherwise you stay in the same place for the rest of your life. I got up, and walked towards the front, to her.
There were three people in line.
I went straight past her. :/
Shown in the video taken:
I left the store at 11 and decided to come back when nobody would be there,
I drove for a bit on the main street, yelling incoherently, listening to coldplay, and telling myself i deserved this. i, who spent weeks eating green and healthy, running cardio, lifting, and keeping my skin clear and healthy. my warddrobe ammassed from all around the world. my hairstyle, my smile. it was when i turned a u-turn and headed back without stopping did i set myself back on course, to her once more.
at 11:36 I returned with much torn emotions. She was gone. I asked the lady who now covered her position and in broken english, this nice older lady started saying my girl was on break. I came back after running across the street to pee at another 24 hr spot, it was midnight when I returned for the third and final time. I had looked through the few cars in the massive parking lot to see if she was kipping out in her car, but she wasn't.
Through the door I went, then I saw her, at the far end and she saw me. She turned to walk down one aisle towards me c: and I jogged up the adjacent aisle toward her
she gave me a smile as she did before,and I asked her:
hey i was her and asked about the bathroom
'yea'
and um . i was just wondering if you...if you wanted to watch a movie some time?
silence. I quivered. I waited. I deserved this, love.
'Aw...' she goes. 'I'm married!' with another smile.
oh you're married?
'I'm flattered, yes I am!'
oh, alright, heh, bye *i turn to leave.
i'm okay with this. i'm not happy, i'm not pained. i'm okay. a marriage is one hell of a reason to be unavailable. i'll learn. i'll return.
cliffs:
asked a girl to the movies and she said no
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07-06-2016, 11:19 PM
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You started this thread like 2 months ago and you've asked one girl out???
Its a start at least. Good luck bruv
Its a start at least. Good luck bruv
07-06-2016, 11:31 PM
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today i went for an appointment. the front desk receptionist was an 8/10 latina lady with nicely fitting jeans and some makeup worn on her face, long dark hair and a nice, kind voice. the pair of us butted heads at first cause she misheard that i had an appointment, she thought i was a walk in.
but sure enough, we grew close together as i stayed in close proximity for 50 odd minutes. i asked her for help on my forms. she giggled and bent over (towards me) at the desk i was sitting at on her side of the counter. she took my papers and it sound like fantasy. i feel a mixture of awakeness and 'it's happening...'. i get my issue settled and i leave as she says warmly, "you're all set".
i leave out the door without a word, thinking to myself, do i jump or do i go? i walked slowly to my car. i crossed the street at sat inside, thinking of the comic strip i read over and over the night prior
i bolted out of my seat, ran across the street and walked at a brisk pace with a frenzied glee. i walked right back into that office. i strode forward and stood tall, behind a two-person line that she was attending to. my mind was a blur, but she snapped me out in saying "hello" i stare at her, but i don't remember her face. "are you single" i blurt out. the older receptionist in the back guffaws, and the people in the waiting room chortles to the left of me, to the right of me, and i stare at her. she says "uh..........yes" her face is a frozen smile without a trace of committed reaction. so be it me thinks. i respond with what pops in my mind
"do you want to mingle.... sometime"
more chortles from the now listening audience, magnetized to this performance of life unfurling before them. but it could have been deafening silence. i waited for the decision.
she begins to move her expressions. still kind.
"i'm not really looking for a relationship right now.."
i reacted. we prepared for this. i executed abortion tactic A :leave smiling.
"oh, heh, alright. bye" i turn and glance at my phone, a small smile on my face.
"good try" is heard from one of the standbyers.
but i'm out the door. i'm gone.
it stung, indeed. but not half as bad as i thought it would. and that sting will heal with time. regret, that lingers forever. grows even. i stand by my decisions without regrets. and that's all that really matters.
but sure enough, we grew close together as i stayed in close proximity for 50 odd minutes. i asked her for help on my forms. she giggled and bent over (towards me) at the desk i was sitting at on her side of the counter. she took my papers and it sound like fantasy. i feel a mixture of awakeness and 'it's happening...'. i get my issue settled and i leave as she says warmly, "you're all set".
i leave out the door without a word, thinking to myself, do i jump or do i go? i walked slowly to my car. i crossed the street at sat inside, thinking of the comic strip i read over and over the night prior

i bolted out of my seat, ran across the street and walked at a brisk pace with a frenzied glee. i walked right back into that office. i strode forward and stood tall, behind a two-person line that she was attending to. my mind was a blur, but she snapped me out in saying "hello" i stare at her, but i don't remember her face. "are you single" i blurt out. the older receptionist in the back guffaws, and the people in the waiting room chortles to the left of me, to the right of me, and i stare at her. she says "uh..........yes" her face is a frozen smile without a trace of committed reaction. so be it me thinks. i respond with what pops in my mind
"do you want to mingle.... sometime"
more chortles from the now listening audience, magnetized to this performance of life unfurling before them. but it could have been deafening silence. i waited for the decision.
she begins to move her expressions. still kind.
"i'm not really looking for a relationship right now.."
i reacted. we prepared for this. i executed abortion tactic A :leave smiling.
"oh, heh, alright. bye" i turn and glance at my phone, a small smile on my face.
"good try" is heard from one of the standbyers.
but i'm out the door. i'm gone.
it stung, indeed. but not half as bad as i thought it would. and that sting will heal with time. regret, that lingers forever. grows even. i stand by my decisions without regrets. and that's all that really matters.
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08-03-2016, 06:54 PM
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In b4 hangover movie is real life.
When Stu Fuks tranny and he he cums in his ass as they orgasm simultaneously LMAO.
Epic
When Stu Fuks tranny and he he cums in his ass as they orgasm simultaneously LMAO.
Epic
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08-04-2016, 03:37 AM
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I'm taking bets that OP will get arrested before getting a girl to meet him on a date, esp with all his late night crack head running around.
But you are doing a good story, Remember
"action cures fear and inaction feeds it"
~OG ineed$
shoot it the first chance, not coming back later. Thats creepy
But you are doing a good story, Remember
"action cures fear and inaction feeds it"
~OG ineed$
shoot it the first chance, not coming back later. Thats creepy
08-04-2016, 03:40 AM
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I'll rep to valhalla when you provide results with evidence.
Edit: wtf did i just read?
Edit: wtf did i just read?
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08-04-2016, 03:47 AM
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OP has low test.
Any male who remains virgin when they can get hot escort is a low T beta
Any male who remains virgin when they can get hot escort is a low T beta
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08-04-2016, 06:08 AM
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I'm willing to donate to an escort fund for you srs
Just imagine your 4inch warrior in this thing, holy **** would be misc history
Spoiler!
Just imagine your 4inch warrior in this thing, holy **** would be misc history
Spoiler!

Neiiighhhh
โ ะญะบะธะฟะฐะถ ะธะทััะตะฝะธั ััััะบะพะณะพ ัะทัะบะฐ โ
How did a feeling so strong..
..end up just feeling so wrong?
08-04-2016, 06:26 AM
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Originally Posted By Auzthetics⏩
lmaoI'm willing to donate to an escort fund for you srs
Just imagine your 4inch warrior in this thing, holy **** would be misc history
Spoiler!
Just imagine your 4inch warrior in this thing, holy **** would be misc history
Spoiler!

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08-04-2016, 06:43 AM
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Hahahaha. This cannot be real life. You asked her to "mingle"!?!
Do yourself a favour and download tinder and happn. Tons of chicks and its easy to pull.
Do yourself a favour and download tinder and happn. Tons of chicks and its easy to pull.
08-04-2016, 07:10 AM
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I don't get all the hate. This isn't about OP losing his V, this is about growing and going outside your comfort zone. Props to OP for not just sitting and typing **** like an FA, and actually doing something about it. If he suceeds or not doesn't really matter, it's all about self improving and stepping out of the comfort zone. Obv anyone can just go and buy a sloot, but that doesn't really improve OP's game.
I will 4ever encourage people like this. Haters gonna hate. Repped OP.
I will 4ever encourage people like this. Haters gonna hate. Repped OP.
08-10-2016, 12:16 AM
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I want to start this post by mentioning conversion rates. The rate for approaches to bangs vary anywhere from <1% to 5%. I'm picking my targets with reservation in how welcoming they look, so 5% is my number to hit. That is 1 beautiful fiddle session to 20 total approaches. The count will be added starting now.
Schools out at the local college. almost nobody is there on campus except for international students getting their things in order. nevertheless, there is always a way, and today i persevered despite the odds.
I got there early in the morning and promptly as i arrive and walk through the entrance office, i see a girl behind the desk. 7/10 latina with slight tan and brown eyes and long, ordinary, brown hair. I pass by her once as she is tending to a couple of those students. I give some time for them to pass and take a look around the school. Nobody is out there basically. realizing that this is the best time to go talk to her, since it is early and it is only going to get louder. that logic was set in stone, so to speak, and action needed to be taken then and there. so i do a couple pass by hers, then drink at the water fountain. i walk up to her at last and say hey. she says hi and looks back at her computer. i tell her that i saw her and wanted to know if she was single. didn't make eye contact after the first hi till i finished my request. i look back and she puts on a wide smile, from the comp to me and says quietly she has a boyfriend. i smile and say have a good day. the warmth in the departure made things fine for me, nicely enough.
3/20
i step outside and just as i start my way across the lot to my car, a girl crosses my path. from the general look of her, she seemed decent looking. black leggings, average body and height. long haired latina almost the same with the previous girl's physique. i see the pants and think, a stitch in time... so i pivot and say excuse me. she stops and looks and me in concern. her face isn't up to par, maybe a 5/10. the hooked nose and blotchy skin made me forget about the initial attraction. i go 'uh, nvm', clop my feet together and walk away. behind my back i hear her go witha laugh, oh ok?.
I drive to a department store next, and it's two stories. I walk the first floor, and just older people and fatties. I try the second. It's really packed, crowded, with cushy decor. Felt like an attic. I walked around and a girl with a chubby body in same 3/4 length black leggings walks by me. she walks to a desk and is wearing an employee name tag. I walk to a shelf that stands in between us. waiting for a bit to make sure nobody was coming (there were only 3 people up stairs) i turned. she was indeed a thick latina with white skin and a slight chin fat protrusion. She was wearing glasses. She has that peach fuzz look, but her voice is bored. she was on the phone and looked at me through those thick taylor swift glasses. 5/10 cause of the weight. nicer face. i say with a smile, quiet and shyly, 'hi i was just wondering...... are you single?' she just stares at me and after what felt like 5 seconds, she starts slowwwly grinning and shakes her head. i laugh, say ok, smile, turn quickly and head to the elevator going downstairs directly in front of her desk by 30 ft. i'm standing with my back to her and push the button. a long 30 seconds... she starts talking on the phone in the same voice sometime during.
4/20
Sitting here watching the olympics and already care little about standing in front of the elevator with that 2nd girl and that 1st girl too. Wish i did try with the middle girl. The leggings make it seem worth the try in retrospect. it would be nice having one to text at night, at home.
Schools out at the local college. almost nobody is there on campus except for international students getting their things in order. nevertheless, there is always a way, and today i persevered despite the odds.
I got there early in the morning and promptly as i arrive and walk through the entrance office, i see a girl behind the desk. 7/10 latina with slight tan and brown eyes and long, ordinary, brown hair. I pass by her once as she is tending to a couple of those students. I give some time for them to pass and take a look around the school. Nobody is out there basically. realizing that this is the best time to go talk to her, since it is early and it is only going to get louder. that logic was set in stone, so to speak, and action needed to be taken then and there. so i do a couple pass by hers, then drink at the water fountain. i walk up to her at last and say hey. she says hi and looks back at her computer. i tell her that i saw her and wanted to know if she was single. didn't make eye contact after the first hi till i finished my request. i look back and she puts on a wide smile, from the comp to me and says quietly she has a boyfriend. i smile and say have a good day. the warmth in the departure made things fine for me, nicely enough.
3/20
i step outside and just as i start my way across the lot to my car, a girl crosses my path. from the general look of her, she seemed decent looking. black leggings, average body and height. long haired latina almost the same with the previous girl's physique. i see the pants and think, a stitch in time... so i pivot and say excuse me. she stops and looks and me in concern. her face isn't up to par, maybe a 5/10. the hooked nose and blotchy skin made me forget about the initial attraction. i go 'uh, nvm', clop my feet together and walk away. behind my back i hear her go witha laugh, oh ok?.
I drive to a department store next, and it's two stories. I walk the first floor, and just older people and fatties. I try the second. It's really packed, crowded, with cushy decor. Felt like an attic. I walked around and a girl with a chubby body in same 3/4 length black leggings walks by me. she walks to a desk and is wearing an employee name tag. I walk to a shelf that stands in between us. waiting for a bit to make sure nobody was coming (there were only 3 people up stairs) i turned. she was indeed a thick latina with white skin and a slight chin fat protrusion. She was wearing glasses. She has that peach fuzz look, but her voice is bored. she was on the phone and looked at me through those thick taylor swift glasses. 5/10 cause of the weight. nicer face. i say with a smile, quiet and shyly, 'hi i was just wondering...... are you single?' she just stares at me and after what felt like 5 seconds, she starts slowwwly grinning and shakes her head. i laugh, say ok, smile, turn quickly and head to the elevator going downstairs directly in front of her desk by 30 ft. i'm standing with my back to her and push the button. a long 30 seconds... she starts talking on the phone in the same voice sometime during.
4/20
Sitting here watching the olympics and already care little about standing in front of the elevator with that 2nd girl and that 1st girl too. Wish i did try with the middle girl. The leggings make it seem worth the try in retrospect. it would be nice having one to text at night, at home.
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08-10-2016, 01:08 AM
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In. If OP's stats are legit then he shouldn't have much problems. Also, perhaps try a different approach then continually asking them "are you single?". Actually phuk it, keep doing this stone cold approach, it's more entertaining that way. And try and get pics. Mirin your novel-esque story telling ability OP.
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Originally Posted By bloated55⏩
Not as brutal as never hugging a girlAge: 26
Negged for rep begging.
But also LOLd hard at "brb never felt a boob sexually". Brutal. Feel a little bit sorry for you.
Negged for rep begging.
But also LOLd hard at "brb never felt a boob sexually". Brutal. Feel a little bit sorry for you.
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08-10-2016, 02:03 AM
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Tinder is the best way to lose your V Card. Straight up tell girls you're a virgin and you're looking for that special first.
They will fuk you dead srs.
They will fuk you dead srs.
Look, i know i don't really know you and all, and i know you probably hear this like everyday, but your just so perfect to me. The few hours we talked were really great even if the convo was stale, your really pretty and chill, and your country thats just perfect :'D i really dont know how to explain it, but i think i have feelings for you somehow. i never felt like this with someone i just met, but i felt the need to get it off my chest. sorry for being all weird just idk how to explain it D:
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Originally Posted By Nicklol⏩
You're saying you never even hugged a girl? Ah c'mon man, this can't be real life.Not as brutal as never hugging a girl
08-10-2016, 04:24 AM
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Originally Posted By Nicklol⏩
Fuark oath, even I had gotten past that problem when I was a +300lb FA loser.Not as brutal as never hugging a girl
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08-10-2016, 05:01 AM
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stay safe op
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Originally Posted By brieliever⏩
is this real life?today i went for an appointment. the front desk receptionist was an 8/10 latina lady with nicely fitting jeans and some makeup worn on her face, long dark hair and a nice, kind voice. the pair of us butted heads at first cause she misheard that i had an appointment, she thought i was a walk in.
but sure enough, we grew close together as i stayed in close proximity for 50 odd minutes. i asked her for help on my forms. she giggled and bent over (towards me) at the desk i was sitting at on her side of the counter. she took my papers and it sound like fantasy. i feel a mixture of awakeness and 'it's happening...'. i get my issue settled and i leave as she says warmly, "you're all set".
i leave out the door without a word, thinking to myself, do i jump or do i go? i walked slowly to my car. i crossed the street at sat inside, thinking of the comic strip i read over and over the night prior
i bolted out of my seat, ran across the street and walked at a brisk pace with a frenzied glee. i walked right back into that office. i strode forward and stood tall, behind a two-person line that she was attending to. my mind was a blur, but she snapped me out in saying "hello" i stare at her, but i don't remember her face. "are you single" i blurt out. the older receptionist in the back guffaws, and the people in the waiting room chortles to the left of me, to the right of me, and i stare at her. she says "uh..........yes" her face is a frozen smile without a trace of committed reaction. so be it me thinks. i respond with what pops in my mind
"do you want to mingle.... sometime"
more chortles from the now listening audience, magnetized to this performance of life unfurling before them. but it could have been deafening silence. i waited for the decision.
she begins to move her expressions. still kind.
"i'm not really looking for a relationship right now.."
i reacted. we prepared for this. i executed abortion tactic A :leave smiling.
"oh, heh, alright. bye" i turn and glance at my phone, a small smile on my face.
"good try" is heard from one of the standbyers.
but i'm out the door. i'm gone.
it stung, indeed. but not half as bad as i thought it would. and that sting will heal with time. regret, that lingers forever. grows even. i stand by my decisions without regrets. and that's all that really matters.
but sure enough, we grew close together as i stayed in close proximity for 50 odd minutes. i asked her for help on my forms. she giggled and bent over (towards me) at the desk i was sitting at on her side of the counter. she took my papers and it sound like fantasy. i feel a mixture of awakeness and 'it's happening...'. i get my issue settled and i leave as she says warmly, "you're all set".
i leave out the door without a word, thinking to myself, do i jump or do i go? i walked slowly to my car. i crossed the street at sat inside, thinking of the comic strip i read over and over the night prior

i bolted out of my seat, ran across the street and walked at a brisk pace with a frenzied glee. i walked right back into that office. i strode forward and stood tall, behind a two-person line that she was attending to. my mind was a blur, but she snapped me out in saying "hello" i stare at her, but i don't remember her face. "are you single" i blurt out. the older receptionist in the back guffaws, and the people in the waiting room chortles to the left of me, to the right of me, and i stare at her. she says "uh..........yes" her face is a frozen smile without a trace of committed reaction. so be it me thinks. i respond with what pops in my mind
"do you want to mingle.... sometime"
more chortles from the now listening audience, magnetized to this performance of life unfurling before them. but it could have been deafening silence. i waited for the decision.
she begins to move her expressions. still kind.
"i'm not really looking for a relationship right now.."
i reacted. we prepared for this. i executed abortion tactic A :leave smiling.
"oh, heh, alright. bye" i turn and glance at my phone, a small smile on my face.
"good try" is heard from one of the standbyers.
but i'm out the door. i'm gone.
it stung, indeed. but not half as bad as i thought it would. and that sting will heal with time. regret, that lingers forever. grows even. i stand by my decisions without regrets. and that's all that really matters.
One of these days I'm going to cut you into little pieces
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