You should have drank some beer or liquor to ease your nerves.

and just hire an escort dude. You put too much pressure on yourself. When I lost my virginity, I remember getting pretty drunk before I did it and it took away any anxiety I had and I was in my own element.

No sex but you finger fukked. Nice bro!!!

Read the whole thing, you are extremely lucky to have her push you into some action like that. Even though you had performance anxiety (which I'd have expected and is normal given your nervousness), I think that is very solid progress.

Quick note on the anxiety - it will go away after a few tries. You already had her wet and moaning, no need to worry about your sexual performance brah. Seriously, keep playing with her until she gets off next time, and then go for sex - it will take the pressure off.

oh, its wet.. yeah, they do that

fuk give us a pic or someone who resembles her

Fuk it man, you made further than you've ever been!

I'm real happy for you, but lay off the porn. You don't want that to happen again or else you will get extreme anxiety about it and that's not fun

Well then I honestly don't know what's wrong with you. If I hadn't jerked it in 3 days and a girl let me feel her boob, I'd have a raging boner regardless of how nervous I was. Maybe you're asexual? Or gay or impotent.

I don't even know where to begin..

First you should have prepared better. You knew your anxiety would be through the roof - should have drank some booze before/during.

You also need to try and make a move during the movie. If she rejects, play it off by saying something like "ok, ill try again in a little bit" in a cheeky funny tone. I mean.. you guys literally talked about having sex.

You need to be move confident man. This little girl, who is a complete stranger came to your place.. that takes some confidence. Show some back by being a man and taking initiative. At least do it for her so she doesnt think she smells or is ugly.

I really dont know if you can salvage this situation. You live and learn.

Lmfao at that update. Nick m8 she wanted it so bad to the point she was trying to make moves for you lol

Alright guys, she just left.

Heres exactly what happened from when she drove in to left.


So.. she texts me "im here, in the parking lot"

I immediately panic, anxiety high as fuk.. go figure out what to wear to go and meet her in parking lot..
I get to parking lot.. shes not there.. I call her, she says she left because she was waiting 20 minutes.
I said I only got a text a few mins ago (I did). Anyways.. she came back and we walked to my apartment.

She gets to my apartment, starts looking around and saying how its nice, just like her old apartment.
We talk about it for a bit before she asks me whats on the tv and we sit down and decide what to watch (yes srs)
We pick this movie:


we sit through the entire movie (1 hour 24 minutes) I didnt put my arm around her or anything..I wanted to, but I felt like she wasnt attracted to me for some reason..
the apartment is super hot for some reason.. its never hot.
I am so uncomfortable sitting on my sht couch.. I should throw it out because the wood is broken at the bottom and you sink into it.

The shtty ass movie ends, she gets up and goes to washroom..
I stretch and assume she is going to leave, I dont care, I am used to being a failure and I wasted time and couldnt make a move.

She walks back into living room and says "how long can I park in parking lot?" because there was a limit in the parking.
I stand awkwardly scrolling through my smart tv menu while turned the other way. I start trying to make some conversation, asking her about her life,work etc etc.

She says what should we do now?, and I THINK I said not sure while doing something on the laptop.
She randomly says: "you really are shy arent you, wow, very interesting"
and starts to ask stuff like "are you nervous? why? am I scary?"
I just randomly say some awkward stuff as usual (women usually laugh at anything I say, not because im funny.. but because I look awkward/shy)

after a while of her talking about how I am shy and asking me questions..

she asks me "what should we do now" again while standing around holding her back (because the couch was uncomfortable)
she then asks me " want to give me a massage?" (I mentioned giving her a massage as a joke in text earlier in the week)

And I said sure and we both laughed.

she said "I will lay down here"

she lays down and I start massaging her lower back and she starts laughing and I laugh too.
I massage her for a bit and she says "more gentle, haha"
she then says I dont think its helping, is that a hard area to massage? and I said yeah actually.
she says where is a easy area to massage? and I said, your shoulders.

I start massaging her shoulders and she moans and says "yeah, that feel good" (Chinese accent)
she then says "you can give full body massage?" and laughs and I say yeah.

she then says its hot and takes off her sweater and shes now just wearing her tube top.
I start massaging her whole back and shoulder area.

she then says "are you comfortable?" and I say yeah.
I do that for a good amount of time while shes watching the planet earth documentary on netflix (this is actually pretty cool, I wish I could have sat and watched it)
and mention how hot it was and she said "you can take off your shirt, its ok."
I stop massaging her and sit there for a sec.

I then say "can I have a massage?"
and she says
"ok, but I dont know how to do massage well"

she starts to feel me up and says "wow and pokes my muscles in a funny way"
massages me for a bit and asks if it was good and I said "ehhh" or something like that and told her that she was massaging my shoulder wrong.

she then is sitting beside me on the bed and said "wow, your arms are very hard, must take lot work" and I said yeah, a bit.
I then say you have nice arms too or something like that and feel up her arms and she says "it all fat haha"

she then pokes my chest and says "wow your boobs are hard too haha" and I laugh and said "boobs?"

she then says, "not like mine.. want to feel them, go ahead"

I grab her boob and it feels like bags of sand. I grab her other boob and it felt like another bag of sand, but I was feeling them up good, heh.

after a while she says "are you comfortable"? and I said yeah, she said "you are nervous" I said no

she then says "want to do stuff now?" and I say yes.

I sit awkwardly beside her trying to figure out how to proceed.. I slowly put my arm around her and she says "want to cuddle" I said yeah.

I hold her for a bit and she says "kiss"
and I kiss her a few times and she says "youre so cute"

she then says want to get on top of me?
And I said yes.
I get on top of her and start kissing, making out, whatever you want to call it..
at one point she says "tongue" and then I feel her tongue in my mouth.. (I never kissed a girl before this)

after a good amount of time of doing this, she says "want to kiss my boob"?
I said yeah and she laughs. I take out her left boob and put it in my mouth and suck on her titty.
I pull out the right boob and start sucking on it and she randomly shivered.

After a while of doing that I notice she started to shiver and breathe differently.
I stop and we look at her and we smile and she asks if I am ok and I said yes.

I then say now what?.. and I eventually slide my hand between her legs over her pants and start rubbing.
she starts to shiver and breathe differently again and says "you know what you doing"
I then begin switching from making out with her and her nipple , while rubbing between her legs.. she starts moaning and stuff.

She then tells me to put it under her pants and I do this. I realize.. oh, its wet.. yeah, they do that..
and after a while of doing this and hear moaning and stuff like that, I tell her I cant get in there good (because her pants are tight and I cant move my hand good)
I then begin to pull of her pants and do that.

I then started to speed it up while making out and stuff, and she was grabbing my back muscles and back of my head a lot while moaning and shaking.
I did this until she moved my hand away and she just rested.
she did this twice, so I assumed she got off twice that way?

I then went back to it and she said "want to take off your pants"
I do this and get back in bed with her and continue to make out and "rub her"

she then starts trying to jack me off and like I suspected.. my dick was dead.
My penis was in its smallest soft state and wasnt budging.. she said something like "too much porn?" or something like that
and I said yeah, haha

she then said "maybe too nervous?"
I said maybe.

she said maybe try to relax and started to rub my head as she was slowly grabbing my dink

It was dead and I mean dead.. it prolly lookd really small and pathetic as she was grabbing at it. hope she knows that is not how it will always be!

eventually we stop and she says "its ok, maybe we did too much today, we did a lot"

we start to get dressed and she eventually heads towards the door, says bye
doesnt give me a chance to hug or kiss or anything and left.

I texted her at about 9:30 asking if her car wasnt towed or anything because she stayed at my place longer than 2 hours.. and she hasnt responded since.

this is what happend.

****ing nicholas cage

dude if you can't show us a pic, at least describe this sloot???

****ing nicholas cage

I said in my last quote post

33 year old asian woman, average build, average face.
tiny. like 5'1 or 5'2 I forgot

dude.. take my fkin advise!! u will not regret it!!

Nik is 8/10 looks and by far one of the better looking users on the Misc
he is 5"10
Being bald SUITS him
and he has a better body than most



This guy is definitely not straight.

Being in Toronto phucks with your head. I can relate to a lot of what he's saying. You never see white guys with women here.

Sounds painfully familiar. Sucks being shy and awkward. Gj tho.

Why would I need to do all that though?
Next time (if there is a next time with her) no movie, no nothing.. just straight to it.
just gotta hope everything is working.
no porn for a while, lol