OP had cancer twice, lost half his face, moved to Barcelona, now has a 10/10 life

08-03-2017, 03:02 PM

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Originally Posted By keels141⏩

I think what you are doing is great brother, just keep doing what you are doing...people like you have such a huge impact on the people around them. It changes the whole energy of the situation and puts others in a good mood, and it sounds like it is a conscious decision that you have made to have this attitude - so kudos to you my friend.

Not trying to make light of it but what you have been through with the cancer and the jaw surgery is a good angle for a youtuber, it is a point of differentiation and people will respond to that I think. It seems to be the way that once you reach a tipping point the momentum picks up and you will pick up a heap more subscribers, success breeds success.

Regardless brother, it is such a breath of fresh air to see someone with an attitude like yours - keep spreading the positive energy mate

damn bro hit me right in the feels with this post

first off, yes you're right, it was a conscious decision to become more of a positive person.. before the cancer I definitely used to be a lot more negative in a lot of ways

it still pops up it's head every now and then, being from belgium i was raised in a very conservative manner and especially when it comes to relationships and girls I really had to check myself and make some mental adjustments.. basically you could say I used to look at life like most of the misc do

"if i cant be the ****ing man ima be angry and depressed"

"ow she dont want me? **** her then, she's a slut"

"ow she does want me? she's too easy, **** her"

my ego used to be my biggest enemie.. and was my downfall in a lot of situations

this the type of **** that I'm really not proud off... I still need work done but I feel I'm maturing and evolving with age, step by step

funny enough, having this ego has allowed me to overcome looking the way I do, even when strangers treat me ****ty and stare at me etc... I like to live by "perception is reality" as a motto... and I've learned that the biggest thrill of satisfaction I get is from picking others up and making them feel good.. I used to be so self-centered and now when I see a fat girl walking down the street I get all emo and feel the need to say something nice to her, uplifting in a way... like .. "hey look at me, im ****ed, but its ok, life is ****ing great if you can accept who u are"

damn im kinda ranting in this bitch, anyway, thank u bro

08-04-2017, 03:45 AM

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Originally Posted By jreacher⏩

Good thread, OP.

Best wishes, mayne.

thank u bro, much appreciated

08-04-2017, 04:22 AM

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Originally Posted By BigBoiBenzo⏩

true dat but had to make the title nice and juicy ya diiiggg.. and really it's 1/4th

the way it looks now is already the reconstruction... lol, so it won' get much better, I've been getting lipofillings (procedure where they take fat from your stomach, lower bag and legs and transfer it to somewhere else) to fill up the side gaps on my face tho...

thing is my case of cancer is extremely rare so I'm a unique case which makes it very hard for plastic surgeons to work on me... everything to do on me is document and recorded in case studies because they've never had a patient of my age with this condition

but yeah to answer your question, I'm hoping medical tech will drastically improve in the future and they'll be able to make me look pristine again one day.. I always joke with my friends "I'ma look so damn good when I'm 40"

Have you tried contacting them docters on the show botched? it's terry dubrow and Dr Nassif. Theyre extremely good at fixing scaring, doing reconstructions etc etc. Maybe they could help you out and possibly improve on a few places that they could where you have scaring etc? Also it would be huge publicity for you to be on a national show watched by millions world wide to drive them to your youtube channel. You should look into it brah.

Anyways if you dont try and reach out to them goodluck with everything anyways man, takes a true soldier to just say fuk it and focus on the positives.

08-04-2017, 04:59 AM

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Originally Posted By BigBoiBenzo⏩

6'3

1m94

I'm really pale too tho, my south american friends who got dat tan pull way easier than me

I wouldn't say often, been 5 times in total

just went 4 weeks ago when barca legends played man united legends, was dope to see ronaldinho back in action... funny they got their ass whooped 3 to 1 tho lol

the problem with camp nou is that it's too big, 80k seats, so if you're not paying premium prices you can't even make out which is player is who.. literally need to go to the stadium with binoculars

I do follow barca games on tv

194 is 6'4.5, fuark brah

08-04-2017, 06:00 AM

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Originally Posted By boostnlol⏩

Have you tried contacting them docters on the show botched? it's terry dubrow and Dr Nassif. Theyre extremely good at fixing scaring, doing reconstructions etc etc. Maybe they could help you out and possibly improve on a few places that they could where you have scaring etc? Also it would be huge publicity for you to be on a national show watched by millions world wide to drive them to your youtube channel. You should look into it brah.

Anyways if you dont try and reach out to them goodluck with everything anyways man, takes a true soldier to just say fuk it and focus on the positives.

damn bro I never even heard of these people, but honestly that sounds like a pretty good idea

let me google these ****ers and see if i can find some contact info.. would def be interesting checking out, u never know

ima look them up TODAY, i believe everything happens for a reason and maybe u were meant to tell me this lol

and thank you for your last line, I'm just trying to keep pushing on bro, only got 1 ride so let's maximise this ****

08-04-2017, 06:15 AM

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Your brains chemical balance is probably on point and had always been healthy. Means you're producing a decent amount of serotonin and dopamine which gave you a really good chance of recovering mentally. I have to admit tho, to be able come through what you've been through and live a fulfilling life is very impressive but i've seen many similar cases that have inspired me and made my problems seem very small in comparison. Did it ever help me overcome my crippling depression and SA? Nope. It just made be pity myself less because i know there are those out there who have had it much worse so what right do i have to feel aggrieved? It still doesn't do anything for my mental issues which i believe are down to some serious chemical imbalances in my brain. I feel practically dead inside most of the time even when i have no reason to be.

08-04-2017, 07:28 AM

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08-04-2017, 07:29 AM

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Originally Posted By PirateBrah10⏩

Your brains chemical balance is probably on point and had always been healthy. Means you're producing a decent amount of serotonin and dopamine which gave you a really good chance of recovering mentally. I have to admit tho, to be able come through what you've been through and live a fulfilling life is very impressive but i've seen many similar cases that have inspired me and made my problems seem very small in comparison. Did it ever help me overcome my crippling depression and SA? Nope. It just made be pity myself less because i know there are those out there who have had it much worse so what right do i have to feel aggrieved? It still doesn't do anything for my mental issues which i believe are down to some serious chemical imbalances in my brain. I feel practically dead inside most of the time even when i have no reason to be.

It's because of masturbation srs

08-04-2017, 10:25 AM

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Originally Posted By PirateBrah10⏩

Your brains chemical balance is probably on point and had always been healthy. Means you're producing a decent amount of serotonin and dopamine which gave you a really good chance of recovering mentally. I have to admit tho, to be able come through what you've been through and live a fulfilling life is very impressive but i've seen many similar cases that have inspired me and made my problems seem very small in comparison. Did it ever help me overcome my crippling depression and SA? Nope. It just made be pity myself less because i know there are those out there who have had it much worse so what right do i have to feel aggrieved? It still doesn't do anything for my mental issues which i believe are down to some serious chemical imbalances in my brain. I feel practically dead inside most of the time even when i have no reason to be.

damn bro u gave me cold chills with this post.. u feel dead inside? why? help me understand please

and I used to battlle depression in highschool all the time.. felt insecure, was affraid lots of times... I would feel the need to isolate and go be in my room

beginning of college, first year was terrible.. I found a way to deal with this was reading books and identifying with the main characters.. same with tv shows.. I used to watch Dexter religiously and convinced msyself I was like him, a freak, a psycho, some dark creature....

after this I discovered sopranos and I tried to emulate anthony soprano

after a while I realised this wasn't who I was, so I stop trying to be all hard, admitted to myself that I'm a very sensitive and emotional human being and things have gone better and better ever since

I used to have this image of having to be a very hard, masculine man, .. and a side of me still is.. but I'm definitly way more in touch with my soft side now, and it feels good

i realise this **** sounds gay af.. but it is what it is

tell me more about this chemical **** tho, where'd u found about this?

08-04-2017, 10:28 AM

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Skipped from the first page to this one. were before surgery pics posted?

08-04-2017, 10:34 AM

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Mirin tenacity and will bro.

08-04-2017, 10:36 AM

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08-04-2017, 11:16 AM

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Originally Posted By crossedover⏩

Skipped from the first page to this one. were before surgery pics posted?

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/arti...build-jaw.html

08-04-2017, 11:17 AM

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ITT OP does twice as much with half as much.

08-04-2017, 03:25 PM

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Originally Posted By whtcoupe⏩

ITT OP does twice as much with half as much.

haha gotta go all in every time.. even tho they dealt u a ****ty hand

the misc support has been ****ing unreal

currently on a date with a beautiful venezeluan girl that op is already catching feels for

shes cooking for me as i type this sitting on the terrace

life is beautiful

follow me on ig brethren

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08-04-2017, 10:08 PM

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gjdm, its all about mind. Its your ultimate weapon.

Also jaw surgery can help a lot.

08-05-2017, 10:35 AM

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Originally Posted By allnamestaken1⏩

gjdm, its all about mind. Its your ultimate weapon.

Also jaw surgery can help a lot.

thank u bro

im praying medical tech will only improve

i always joke that at age 40 i'll look amazing

08-05-2017, 02:31 PM

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08-09-2017, 01:58 PM

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You remind me of the belgian youtuber/powerlifter/youtuber Jean Onche, but not as impressive as your story though but with the same philosophy

you da man

EDIT yo brah tu parles Francais? Or you live in the flemish speaking side? (judging from your nice background and the fact that your english is spot on, Flemish i would guess, i completely forgot how to speak it lel)

damn son small world

08-14-2017, 01:34 PM

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Originally Posted By dfprodz⏩

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You remind me of the belgian youtuber/powerlifter/youtuber Jean Onche, but not as impressive as your story though but with the same philosophy

you da man

EDIT yo brah tu parles Francais? Or you live in the flemish speaking side? (judging from your nice background and the fact that your english is spot on, Flemish i would guess, i completely forgot how to speak it lel)

damn son small world

oui je parle francais mais je suis flamand

from the dutch part indeed, so my french is ****ty

thanks a lot for your support brah, small world indeed, what's your connection with belgium?

08-14-2017, 01:36 PM

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Damn that is brutal glad you're alive. I had a friend get throat cancer and he looks about the same. Many don't make it out of that.

I know this gets asked a lot, but what is stopping you from having it rebuilt?

08-14-2017, 01:39 PM

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Absolutely mirin your positive attitude and ability to overcome such a terrible disease. Keep it up man and goodluck.

08-14-2017, 02:53 PM

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Originally Posted By Lawlstud⏩

Damn that is brutal glad you're alive. I had a friend get throat cancer and he looks about the same. Many don't make it out of that.

I know this gets asked a lot, but what is stopping you from having it rebuilt?

this is already the rebuilt version basically

plastic surgery is nowhere near where most people think it is right now.. like u need actual new flesh and bone and **** to get a new jaw constructed and they harvest it from ur body

in my case my new jaw is my left oblique

08-14-2017, 02:56 PM

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Originally Posted By BigBoiBenzo⏩

this is already the rebuilt version basically

plastic surgery is nowhere near where most people think it is right now.. like u need actual new flesh and bone and **** to get a new jaw constructed and they harvest it from ur body

in my case my new jaw is my left oblique

Crazy, Well honestly glad you made it out with minimal damage. Such a small price to keep your life.

Enjoy life man you earned it.

08-14-2017, 03:05 PM

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sorry that happened to you but glad you're alive and doing well

definitely a reality check for me and others who think we have it bad at times...could never imagine going through what you did man

08-15-2017, 03:39 AM

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Originally Posted By Lawlstud⏩

Crazy, Well honestly glad you made it out with minimal damage. Such a small price to keep your life.

Enjoy life man you earned it.

**** I been on a binge for 4 months bro, I'm def enjoying it lol, days like this (I just woke up) I'm thinking I should prolly calm down and go back to a more normal life with less partying... but yeah.. yolo lol

appreciate your kind words tho

Originally Posted By DreamerCut⏩

sorry that happened to you but glad you're alive and doing well

definitely a reality check for me and others who think we have it bad at times...could never imagine going through what you did man

you stronger than u think bro, trust me

08-15-2017, 04:16 AM

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you genuine as fuaaark brah. subbed & hope to see ya rise to the top

brb booking trip to barcelona

08-15-2017, 05:37 PM

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Originally Posted By sanine⏩

you genuine as fuaaark brah. subbed & hope to see ya rise to the top

brb booking trip to barcelona

preciate that brah

always welcome to come and hang out with me srs