****alarm clock for my brain went off this weekend****..



I knew before that the government is only out for profit, but I didn't "really" understand just how shady our government/laws were until this past weekend.

I really feel like my eyes have been opened to this and how ****ty society is as a whole in the past two years. It sounds cliche, but I guess you could
say I am fully "awake" now. I don't say that arrogantly btw.

It is ridiculous the things that are considered important VS. what actually IS important or would be beneficial for society.


My oldest last night said
"Mom, most kids just care about a few things..social media, phones, friends, and being popular"
I asked "well what do YOU think are important things to care about?" She said "family, friends, helping others". I hope that I'm teaching them well


It just really saddens me that so many people chose to remain ignorant and just go along with the flow saying "well that's just the way it is..you can't change anything" or if you chose to do something that would has positive benefits for yourself you risk getting in trouble just solely because someone told you not to

(not because you would do harm to yourself or someone else, but because it disrupts the system the government has set in place. Disrupts their money making)



I had the happiest weekend of my life friday-sunday and got to be around like minded people, but it always hurts to come back to "civilization" and the real world where people could give an absolute chit about lots of important things.
I feel that this weekend made me have an even deeper appreciation for life and how beautiful everything is. Seeing everything for what I believe it REALLY is and just realizing everything really is connected.



It's amazing and just so hard to explain. It's like watching something from the outside and thinking you know what you believe and how something truly is, but until you experience it first hand, you really DON'T know.
A light switch has definitely been flipped whereas it was just a dimmer switch before that I had been slowly turning until now.




Spoiler!

if you wanna read this is kinda random about my weekend...

The sunset was the prettiest sunset I had ever seen.
I started to crawl into my tent trying to hurry and put on another layer so I could hurry back to the music when I just sat down and stopped.
I realized at that moment I was completely 110% content with sitting in my tent and just BEING. Just sitting there thinking, listening to other people laugh and have fun in the camp behind me.

After I found my way out of my tent (lol!)
I went outside and looked at the ground and leaves and thought holy chit this is gorgeous! I was wondering if other people could feel what I felt and if they couldn't I wished they could. I called my mom who was watching our kids and told her I loved her and wished she was there with me.
Just wish that everyone in the world could slow down and learn to appreciate things more, be kind to others, and have the freedom to make themselves happy.
It's given me a but of encouragement to keep going in school because I want my work to be centered around those beliefs. It's hard work but I feel it will be worth it

Cliffs
I feel like I fully realize things I only thought I understood before
-that is all

**Be the change you wish to see on the misc**
-Gandhi

~NAMASTE~

Thus let me live, unseen, unknown;
Thus unlamented let me die;
Steal from the world, and not a stone
Tell where I lie.

2/17/15 - Dunk Tank Results: 15% bf (Omron said 18.6%) - 123.4 lbs LBM

*** Dawn Patrol Crew ***

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No man is your friend
No man is your enemy
Every man is your teacher

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do not read my posts and weep, i am not there i do not sleep
i am the thousand greens that rep, i am the ban bet dutifully kept
of memes and trolls in toasted breads, i am not there, i am not dead.

I'm back, bitches!

**Be the change you wish to see on the misc**
-Gandhi

~NAMASTE~

**Be the change you wish to see on the misc**
-Gandhi

~NAMASTE~

"I'm not going to be jerked around by some chick who thinks her pussy is going to magically override my sense of self-respect. I'm not a phucking performing seal, I'm not going to do tricks to get a mouthful of fish."

-Azrairc, 2014

🍕Slice of Supreme for Tostee Crew🍕

Originally Posted By Girlgoneweird⏩

I'm not using this forum as validation and I hardly ever post pictures on my bodyspace.
You are supposedly a pious Muslim woman coming onto a forum where we openly talk about raunchy and "degenerate" things.
I am (for the most part) a sexually open and unlike you, NON repressed. I use this forum for lots of things.

What is stranger? Me being on here or you?

I have joked with you on here, but I think you know I am not a mean person...but I'll say I don't care for you too much. You seem very judgmental yet you're on a nasty site with half naked Avi men.

....but hey, I'm not the one who has to pray over what I do/see on this site lol. Keep your opinion if me because that takes nothing away from what I've experienced over the weekend.

Thus let me live, unseen, unknown;
Thus unlamented let me die;
Steal from the world, and not a stone
Tell where I lie.

2/17/15 - Dunk Tank Results: 15% bf (Omron said 18.6%) - 123.4 lbs LBM

**Be the change you wish to see on the misc**
-Gandhi

~NAMASTE~

Originally Posted By MuzzieChik786⏩

That's what I thought. Now go get the prayer rug out and repent.

Byebye *waves*

**Be the change you wish to see on the misc**
-Gandhi

~NAMASTE~

I loe e.

Originally Posted By JPF82⏩

OP, can we take a conversation offline about your childhood? I would really like to know what happened.


I am being 100% srs.

I had a very uneventful childhood actually.
My mom and grandma raised me (dad wasn't around. Never met him, but always had a good support system)
They gave me the freedom to "be" who I wanted and to express my creativity. Mom did yell a lot so that's one thing I had purposed never to do.
My mom is very "type A" take charge in control personality and I'm like my dad who I guess still lives in the woods up north.

That is all lol. I guess if ya wanna psychoanalyze me I'll pm you later

**Be the change you wish to see on the misc**
-Gandhi

~NAMASTE~

Thus let me live, unseen, unknown;
Thus unlamented let me die;
Steal from the world, and not a stone
Tell where I lie.

2/17/15 - Dunk Tank Results: 15% bf (Omron said 18.6%) - 123.4 lbs LBM

**Be the change you wish to see on the misc**
-Gandhi

~NAMASTE~

**Be the change you wish to see on the misc**
-Gandhi

~NAMASTE~

*** Dawn Patrol Crew ***

Rustle me = get repped

**Be the change you wish to see on the misc**
-Gandhi

~NAMASTE~