Every single day. BPD is fuking incomprehensibly horrific and we're incompatible with most people srs. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy.

Made me cringe srs. Life could be so much easier brah just saying.

Hope everything turns out fine

story

story.

Something that can be helpful to keep in mind with BPD is its familial association (https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3150490/) meaning that it runs in families.

I dated a woman for two years whom I suspect has BPD and has not been diagnosed. Her mother has it and has been in therapy for it and appeared to find it helpful; she certainly was more stable, at times, than my ex-girlfriend. I had hoped that the family history would have served as a bridge, and; that my ex would have been more open to acknowledging her disposition and eventually engaging in strategies to help manage it. I, unfortunately, neglected to consider the fragility of her ego and the extents that she would go to in order to maintain it.

She projected her own toxicity onto others; constantly accusing the people who cared about her of disingenuously trying to take advantage. She made a routine of poisoning her relationships, one transgression at a time, until they reached a threshold of toxicity and she would then disengage. Each of her relationships, whether it be with a coworker, friend, best friend, family member, me as her boyfriend, etc, was somewhere on the cycle of being slowly poisoned or on a cool down. Eventually it got so bad that the only two major relationships that she was focused on was her relationship with me and her relationship with her mother. I continued to urge her to seek professional help, for her own benefit and for the sake of our relationship, however; nothing that I said could ever penetrate.

I often felt like I was speaking a different language and the absolute inability to effectively communicate eventually wore me down. She was convinced that I was the literal embodiment of every wrong she had been done. Her projection of her own toxicity onto others allowed her to then displace onto them the stresses that her ego could not stand to bear. I spent a lot of time pondering the question of how someone whom was presumed to hate me so much would go to lengths to keep me around and it eventually started to really get to me. I began to hate myself for all of the trauma that I caused and, at that point, I had to get out. We lived together at the time and there was no immediate economical exit strategy. We seemed to have come to an agreement to keep things cool until the end of the month and we would both go separate ways.

Cliffs for the story time ahead: didn't happen.

I was awakened to her viciously mounting the bed and striking me in the face. She gave me a black eye. I hopped out of bed, naked, and found myself cornered against the wall as she continued to lunge at me, screaming and holding my phone in one of her hands. She alleged to have caught me cheating on her (I wasn't - the notification she is presumed to have seen was from my roommate who had forgotten his keys and was in an uber home), destroyed my phone, and then threw it at me as I attempted to cover up and get out of the house. She had me backing up through the living room, trying to get my underwear on, when she ducked into the kitchen. I ran out the door. Halfway down the street I heard the door open, turned to look back, and saw her coming with a knife. Ran all through the neighborhood and lay low while she threw all of my things out of the window.

Someone evidently called the police and they took statements from the both of us. She said that it was just a disagreement that never got physical; I provided my battered face, shattered phone, and sidewalk full of belongings as proof of battery and destruction of property. The cops concluded that, since they weren't witness to the battery, the destruction of my phone, or the depositing of my belongings on the sidewalk, and because our stories were in disagreement, that nothing warranted their actual involvement. They did, however; order me to surrender my key to the house. I complied and left to find a parking lot to sleep in before returning the next day, with police, to recover the rest of my things. She had conveniently tossed everything, including my refrigerator and two car seats, into a neat pile in the backyard, on top of my scooter. Police didn't seem to find any issue with that, nor would they allow me into the house to retrieve any of the specific items that I had not found in the pile. Cut my losses and took off.

At the time I was working at a local high school and she knew that the coming Monday was the first day back from spring break. She and her brother drove onto the school grounds, broke into my truck, and she smeared her literal feces all over the inside of my vehicle and then posted about it on instagram. The school resource officer was mandated to report the crime as it occurred on school grounds, during school hours, and involved a school employee (me). At that point I felt it necessary to get a restraining order. The judge granted an immediate order of protection on my word alone, and the next judge saw fit to extend the order for the year after hearing both hers and my accounts. The last I saw of her was at that hearing. I never wish to see her or hear from her or her family ever again. Both her and her brother are on court ordered pretrial probation as a result of two felony counts, each, for the incident with the truck.

Stay safe.

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have posted the same stories like hundreds of times before, basically as the poster above said, they will be the best and worst experiences of your life, and youll end up being a completely different person after you are done with them, if you are ever truly done.

Mine still cant let me go and its been 2 years. Im actually afraid of getting into a new relationship lol, i feel like she will go crazy and so something to the new gf

Wife is diagnosed BPD & Bipolar.

Takes work.

what makes it worth it

I am in a relationship with one now and cannot answer the question anymore. It took a year but my mental health suffered and I went to a psych ward.
I feel a little more aware of her bull**** psychosis all of the time now. The lies. The constant "some sort of pain" they're in.
The psychological games are unbearable. Can't talk to these people without them getting nuclear. Can't plan with them because heaven forbid you try to change the plan.

The worst is when she is blaming or accusing me of things shesactively doing

she medicated?
im just venting I don't think I'll last much longer in this relationship

Doesnt sound like a girl with BPD, sounds just like a crasy/psycho girl.


BPD's are more dangerous, you wont hate her after only 2 weeks, at that time shes still worshiping you and making sure you think shes the best woman on the face of the earth

what makes it worth it

I am in a relationship with one now and cannot answer the question anymore. It took a year but my mental health suffered and I went to a psych ward.
I feel a little more aware of her bull**** psychosis all of the time now. The lies. The constant "some sort of pain" they're in.
The psychological games are unbearable. Can't talk to these people without them getting nuclear. Can't plan with them because heaven forbid you try to change the plan.

The worst is when she is blaming or accusing me of things shes actively doing

she medicated?
im just venting I don't think I'll last much longer in this relationship

Vent as much as you'd like, but this person sounds like someoneyou need to run, not walk away from.I know this sounds cheesy but you really do deserve to be happy and safe, and I hope you are working to take steps to get there.

Does it work?

I'm having a hard time trying to differentiate BPD from Bipolar disorder

Say what? lol

Everyone on this forum has and her name is MichelleLynn.

Wears you down. They always come back. It takes a miracle to break free. And it takes a lot of therapy to recover and be able to move your life forward. They're crazy. I don't know if they're in control of their actions and want to make your life miserable to appease their own pain, or if they genuinely are possessed with this uncontrollable insanity. Screaming, crying, blaming, anger, cheating, attention-whoring, manic episodes make up so many interactions. But on the other hand, the good interactions which become fewer and fewer until they want to win you over again, are so incredible. so sweet, so loving, incredible sex. and she was so beautiful. they convince you that you are their savior and their everything. but nothing you do can help them.

hadn't heard from my bipolar+bpd ex in months, was productive and finally happy, and she began bombarding me constantly through text, email, Venmo, calls begging for me to respond. "Coincidentally" when I decided to move to a new city. I broke after a week of this and ended up responding because she truly seemed to be manic and in pain and was sending money and nudes and hysterical. First I messaged to say stop, it's gonna be okay, then I began feeling bad for her and was nice to her. Of course she was relentlessly loving and sweet and it brought back all these feelings. Then I realized what I did and blocked her on her new channels of communicating with me. now I'm depressed as fuk again. it's crazy because it feels like you're torturing them by not taking them back, and it feels like you're torturing them when they have you again and decide to become cold and apathetic and lash out at you constantly. I regret dating her so much. but life goes on.

I know someone who has been dealing with a BPD guy for years now but she figured it out quickly. Once he was blocked everywhere, he created new profiles on social media to stalk her with. Any time she'd post something where she appeared happy, he'd send more threatening emails that yammered on for pages about how she was such a bad person and how he was 100% devoted to her, how could she not be in love with him still? I read a few of them and they were nonsensical rants about how the world needed to see why she was actually a bad person. It really is all about control. If he can't control her, he'll try to control the way others perceive her, with unflattering videos and emails to bosses, family, anyone. Which to the normal person, who cares, right? I honestly thought it was weird, like why can't you just tell him to fuk off when she told me this, then looked at me with the most intense expression and said something like, "You need to understand that the moment he knows I've stopped caring about his threats, he'll kill me and then himself. It will be his final act of control." As far as I know though he's left her alone for a while now maybe he found someone else to fixate on. He's been arrested multiple times for stalking, domestic violence and violating restraining orders yet still has an arsenal of firearms he posts to social media. BPDs are like emotional terrorists, and usually so threatening that you can't just go NC on them unless you have serious resources to handle them. The worst part is he's LEO or was, not sure after his most recent charge so it's been difficult for his past abusees to navigate the legal system. He constantly threatens to kill himself which I'm sure everyone at this point is like oh noooooooooo don't do that. Sounds bad but the world would be a better place if he finally did kill himself.

Seriously, if you ever find out someone you're involved with is borderline, run for the fuking hills. They will ruin your life. I also think it's almost identical to PTSD in men and it's misdiagnosed way too often as a female mental disorder, or maybe there's stigma in diagnosing veterans with BPD, not sure. Anways, chaos and drama are all they know, and the moment they feel you can't be controlled by them anymore, they become suicidal, homicidal, or both.

what makes it worth it

I am in a relationship with one now and cannot answer the question anymore. It took a year but my mental health suffered and I went to a psych ward.
I feel a little more aware of her bull**** psychosis all of the time now. The lies. The constant "some sort of pain" they're in.
The psychological games are unbearable. Can't talk to these people without them getting nuclear. Can't plan with them because heaven forbid you try to change the plan.

The worst is when she is blaming or accusing me of things shesactively doing

she medicated?
im just venting I don't think I'll last much longer in this relationship

I know a dude like this. He was Highway Patrolman of the year in my state. Ded fukn srs. He proposed to 8 different women in the 3 or 4 years I knew him. He also had a German Shepard that he kept tied up on a 4 ft lead outside that was malnourished and infested with ticks. Dog looked like it should have been on a Sarah Mclachlan commercial. Last I heard about him the friend that introduced me to him ended up beating the ever loving chit outta him at a party because he wouldn't stop messaging his fiance and trying to arrange a hook up for DUI help for her which I thought was hilarious since that dude thought he was such a badass. Everybody knew he was a pussy but were scared he'd get them in trouble with the law if they beat him up or called him out about it. He ended up dating a female highway patrol officer and finally got arrested for beating her up and got kicked out. Hopefully that ******* ends up on the street

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Seriously what the fuk is your problem?

You don't want to open that door.

When was the last time your door was opened

Holy FUKK. Yall have dealt with some crazy bishes man wow

it's really my own fault, it came from within my own flaws. I always focus on hot, fashionable girls and am deep down a sucker for girls that need to be taken care of. I guess it used to fulfill my ego and also give me purpose, and I've always been a people-pleaser since growing up my parents were not the best and quite cold. I've gone to therapy since, and have been working through it. but that's what it comes down to a lot of the time, realizing you're the reason you're still stuck with this psycho chick and then breaking through your thought patterns and weaknesses and growing strong enough to leave and not chase those things in the future. but it definitely left me with some sadness in my heart and a quite a knock on my confidence and ability to trust others.

Good for you man, this is a lot of self-awareness. People who get into relationships with BPDs need to take a hard and long look at themselves. Hope nothing but the best for you.