WARNING. LONG POST.


First of all, thank you all you guys if you read it all. I'm currently in the most emotionally fuked up situation in my life. Never been so hurt and betrayed. So if you read most of what I wrote her, please give your honest advice. Much appreciate and may God bless you for trying to help me in this nightmare. I'll give all the rep I can every 24 hours or whatever for the next month for people who read it all and tried to help me. You have my word.




So long story short, I dumped my ex gf who is 20 years older than me on 2020-04-05 after 1.5 years together but we stayed in contact all this time. And I mean constant contact. Chatting almost every other day, occasional meet ups etc. No sex though.


All that time I wanted to stay friends with her and did not think about getting her back. You could say she was still always in my heart but I wasn't crazy about her and wasn't chasing her.

But 4 months ago on tinder I met a really hot girl my age. I smashed her on first date. Total slut. Wanted mostly sex and to be friends with benefits. But even though she was very hot, there wasn't any chemistry and I didn't like her as a person. So after 1.5 months I dumped her as well and ignored her. But boy oh boy how she started chasing me. But I did not care and told her to fuk off. Never heard of her after that.

Now the reason I dumped that slut is because I somehow started thinking about my ex when I was with her. Especially when we were having sex. I started to compare how my ex was in almost every way better than that girl and how much more attracted I was to my ex.

From that very moment, I started chasing my ex like there's no tomorrow. And from that very moment, my life became a living nightmare.

Now 3 months ago I noticed her getting back home very late, like after midnight in the middle of the week. I also noticed couple times her car gone. She was staying the night not at her home. I know this because she parks her car 2 blocks away from my home. So I see her car everyday. And I sometimes I would check very late if she got back home.

One time, I subtly asked where she was gone when she did not come home. One time she said her son took the car. The other time when her car was gone, I pretended that I don't know that and around midnight I wrote her with some stuff that I help her with. And I found a moment and asked her how is she spending her Friday evening. She wouldn't tell me because she doesn't like to lie. I started questioning her and told her to just tell me the truth and I will fuk off. She started saying, omg, I'm not hiding anything, you shouldn't be bothering me etc. That's it.

I knew she was with someone and I was emotionally destroyed that moment.

The very next day, I uploaded a photo from our vacation on Egypt when we were together. The photo she took in the read sea, me flexing and in really good shape. I thought it would remind her of me and good times we had and she would start missing me.

She sarcastically texted me "wow, what a dream boy" something like that. It wasn't sincere though. I could sense that.


Anyway, after that, I met with her and opened all my heart to her, told her how sorry I was that I left her, how I'm missing her and would do anything to get back to her. I even said I would buy us an expensive vacation, would take pictures of you because she loves them. She was not interested. Just relaxed and cold, did not give a single fuk. Told me that she forgives me but there won't be 2nd chance. With a smile on her face.

I was emotionally destroyed again. When I went home, I cried like a little girl for hours. But I still wouldn't give up.

Only this time, when I was chatting with her, I tried to be more relaxed like I don't care about her that much anymore etc.

You could say it worked a little bit. I also noticed she was getting home early after work, she stopped getting back late, wasn't spending the nights somewhere else. It made me more calm. I thought maybe it was just something casual. And she's free again.

So we maintained a connection like nothing happened. Even after I opened all my heart and she stomped on it.

I also noticed that she became a little bit sweeter to me. I thought we're getting closer.


Now a month ago, I gave her back the stuff that she gave me when we were together that I wasn't using anymore. We talked for maybe 20 minutes and she asked me to help her more with the stuff I already help her with. Which is helping her sell her used clothing. I said that I want something for that. I hinted her that I want some romantic time with her. She said that I can't give you anything.

The next day, she sends me a pic of herself tanning in bikini, tits hanging and asks me if I want to join her. I obviously accepted, drove to the place she was tanning. And we spent some time together.

I was like almost certain somethings happening here between us. Maybe she's falling for me.


Anyhow, after a week, on saturday, she had a shift at her work. She finished around 4 pm and said she's going with her colleagues tanning and to spend some time near some lake. I asked to make a group selfie. She refused, said her battery is dying etc. I got very suspicious.


Guess what happened next? She did not come home on that saturday. I was with my friends, came back around 4am in the morning, checked if her car is parked but it was nowhere to be found.


I thought for myself "not this shiet again". But I was somewhat calm this time.

Now the very next day, around noon she texts me and says if I want to go tanning together again. I said of course. But thought for myself "you probably just fuked with someone last night and you invite me to go tanning with you? Wtf?" Anyway, we spend some time together again. I asked her what time did she come back yesterday. She said around 1am. And I just caught her straight lying. I did not say anything of course. But I subtly mentioned about getting back together again. She said that I like my lifestyle that is right now, I don't want to commit etc. I then mentioned that if we can't be a couple, maybe we could spend some time together but with more romance. I thought for myself that whatever she has right now, it's not serious and she would probably do it with me. She did not say no but tried every possible way to dodge the answer. It was like "I'm not saying no but I'm also not saying yes".



Now after I caught her lying, I did something very creepy. I put a gps tracker under her car to find out the truth. And the truth came very fast. First time on Friday, 2 weeks ago. it was her day off because she worked on last saturday. She went to the city where she works in which is 20 miles from the city we live in. She parked her car at some neighborhood. The car was still from 1pm until she got back home around 10pm. I asked that day what she was doing and she said she went to capital city in our country for shopping. Well, maybe but with someone else because her car was still all day. I also asked her out for a coffee. She said I'll probably will get home late. So maybe next time.


The next day, she texts me "soo, what about that coffee?" I said, sure, we can go. So we went. Spend some time again. I took some pictures of her. She hated them. The next day, on sunday, I photoshopped the photos to make them look better. She still hated them. We got into a little bit of argument, I started talking about getting back together but she said she is till hurt after I left her a year ago. I said you don't care about me anymore. She replied I care about you as a friend. I said I won't be friends with you but keep in mind that you have a person that still has feelings for you and would do anything for you. But if you can't even think about getting back with me and I don't attract you sexually anymore, I will let you go. She saw the message and did not reply. This happened on june 27th. So not that long ago.

Now on June 29th, Tuesday, around 6:30 pm, after she finished working, the gps showed the same location and the same neighborhood her car was previously. Not only that but she also posted a story on instagram, filming herself how someone is driving her in a convertible car. When I saw that, I was devastated.

I didn't text her anything until next friday, that is July 2nd. Because her car was at the same neighborhood for like 4 hours after she finished working.

I got so emotional that when she got back home and when I saw her online and the same coworker of hers that I suspect she's spending time with, I texted her "I want to give you back all your clothing (that I help her sell). And you can ask the guy you blow to help you with" She got upset and said watch you mouth.



Now what happened next is beyond pathetic. I texted her, apologized her how I reacted, that she is a free woman and it's not my business if she's seeing someone. I told her that I will still help sell her clothes and will give the money to her when I sell almost all of them. Because although you lied and played with me, I'm not mad at you. She said I can keep the cash for myself whatever I sell. I said I wouldn't do that. She also said to forget about being friends after what I did.


Soo..you probably think this can't get more pathetic, right? Wrong. Keep reading.


So after all this, I thought that this is really the end. But I felt a little bit bad that I told her to take your ****ing clothes and ask for the help the guy that you blow. So I wanted to make it up for this. I bought her a box of roses, a bottle of expensive champagne and left at her home door.

She was not impressed. Said "I don't need flowers from you after the way you talked to me recently. I said it's just a nice gesture, without any intentions. She replied Ok. So that was on July 5th. 2 days ago.

Now what happened the next day after I gave her roses and champagne, that was a sword to my heart. It was her day off and she went to the same neighborhood she goes after work. Left her car and posted tis. I'mm attaching the pictures below.







Now I just learned that this woman (which I deeply loved and she loved me as well before our break up) was playing and fuking with me in every possible way for the last 4 months. Even though I opened my heart to her, offered sincere help, she lied to me, decided to destroy me emotionally and humiliated me as much as possible.




Truth to be told, I have 0 feelings left for her after all this. I just want to do the same to her. I know that I made a lot and incredible mistakes the past 4 months but I want to destroy her emotionally like she did to me. it probably won't work like it worked on me because she doesn't give a fuk about me anymore but what would be my best move right now to cause her as much emotional pain as possible?

My very close friend who has a lot of experience in relationships advices me to invite as much girl friends on ********, he will make me high-end photos with his 10k camera. I should receive a lot of likes which I never did and I'm sure that slut 99% will write to me. She'll think that I still think about her, can't let her go and will probably continue to play her game. My friend advices me to ignore her completely. He says that would be the most painful thing to her after I gave her so much attention and now it's gone. She will go mad. And there's a chance she will start chasing me. Although chances are slim. But a complete ignore will nevertheless hurt her emotionally.


What can you advice? I'm not even thinking ever writing her first. But if she texts me again, should I ignore her completely? Or do I keep chatting with her but don't show any interest in her, write short texts etc? Like she did? Do I have a chance to play with her the same way she played with me?



I know this was very long and if you read through all this and managed to give your sincere thoughts, I'll rep you till the day I die.


Appreciate.

I read it all, it was actually a good read. My advice is to do nothing and wait until you get over it, and then not do anything. She didn't emotionally destroy you on purpose, you just got emotionally destroyed, not by her, but by your reaction to her. It's like George Floyd, who didn't get killed by Chauvin, he just died under the stress, anybody else probably would've had a rough time, but survived. Anyway, she's just doing her own thing, and you took that as offensive, when it objectively wasn't. She had kept her emotional distance the entire time, and you didn't take that hint. She didn't give you any hope, you gave yourself hope. Since I can't fault her for anything, I don't think you should be seeking revenge. She thought you were mature enough about the breakup, when in reality you weren't. I can relate to you on your levels of emotional distress, I didn't do all the things you did, but I can feel why you did them. but in the end those were the wrong things, and I don't think you should do anything else. Just leave her life and be done with her. You can still think about her, but know that it's not going to work out anymore anyway. This is not a problem worth fixing, because although maybe it can be fixed, she won't appreciate it because she doesn't really care if it gets fixed or not. She's just as happy being your friend as she is never speaking to you ever again. So just don't bother man, and move on. I'm still struggling with my breakup 6 months ago, so I feel you bro, don't do anything else crazy with this woman.

This forum should only be reserved for srs posts

I hear you. I know it was mostly my fault that I attached to her so much but there are things she said that are not acceptable

1. She lied all this time to me that she isn't seeing anyone. I don't know what her motives were. But I sense that she did not want to lose me not as a friend but probably as her helper, attention giver and ego lifter.
2. She said that right now, she would only date a rich business guy that is also good looking. While she's probably seeing her poor coworker who 16 years younger than she is but ugly as fuk.
3. When we were at the beach, she started picking my blackheads on my back like she used to when we were a couple. Who dafuq does that to a friend?
4. She sended me a pics of herself. Not that much, maybe 3 or 4 the past month. One of them was somewhat naughty. That is obvious teasing.

I actually read it, you sound like a psycho stalker.

Whatever emotional pain you feel, you put it on yourself by remaining in contact with her.

NC and move on.

I think you posted something along these lines a month or two ago and you should have listened the first time

Not even the fukin incel woman hating misc wants to give you any advice

you legitimately sound like you are about to shoot some chit up

if that ^^ doesn't make you take a step back and take a breath, then you are a piece of chit

srs advice

stop thinking about her

focus on what makes you happy

spend some time relaxing at a lake

go out with friends/distract yourself

this situation needs to be done and with any more escalation and you are going to find yourself behind bars, dead srs. Hope this makes you stop and think

That's some memory right there. I did post a similar post regarding my ex a while ago. Problem is, it escalated into something even more.

I'm not going to do anything after all this. Because I'm so emotionally tired. Only if she first starts engaging with me again, I would like to cause her as much emotional pain as possible. That's it.

If NC her will do that, then I'm ok with that.

Absolutely did nothing read

But getting revenge is the worst thing you could do

How is that creating positive energy in your live to make you a better person?

Just accept and move on

It is impossible for you to "wreck her" the way she has to you. She is 47, has an adult son, has probably been through way more in life than a relationship that was destined not to last with an insecure and immature guy 20 years younger than her. Dating is just fun and games to her and even during the fun times and times she chased you she was never invested the way you have been when you were trying to get her back.

Making her jealous in some way or form in the short term might pique her interest but if you then use it to attempt to get back at her she will just view it as even more pathetic that you care enough to have to waste and devote your life to that.

The only way to "win" is to get over it and realize you are young enough to still be the best, smartest, most attractive version of yourself over the next ~15 years and if you become that person surely you won't care at that point what or if she thinks of you as you'll have moved onto better things.

Also, living across the street seems pretty bad right now.
I'd consider moving if I were you.

this forum never gets old, I swear

If for one second this post is real you need to seriously seek professional psychiatric advice

OP. I read the entire thing, and I can tell you're really hurting, but you don't understand. It's over. It's been over. She's using you for attention. You need to stop talking to her and move on dude. You're the one who can't let go. Not saying she's a saint, but she's not your girl anymore. You ended it. Maybe some days, she fights with her new guy and then msgs u and leads u on, but she doesn't want you dude. She just wants attention.

The best way to get revenge is to never talk to her again and move on. If you try to hurt her and chit, you're still letting her control and dominate your life. You need to go full nc so your brain can reduce the chemical concentrations making you feel this way. Over time, the feelings of love will turn to indifference, and you will remember these situations with humor. #letitgo

Thanks for the laugh mate SRS

Not much you can do.

She's obviously craving his cock and letting him plant his seed inside her every night. He's probably got a much bigger dick than you and also lots more money since she likes to be photographed in his convertible.


Seriously dude, she's an old whore. You've already plowed her five ways to Sunday. So what if it's the next guys turn? An old slut like that could never make you happy or complete you as a man. Move on to younger women who don't have the thousand cock stare.

You emotionally destroy her by moving on, making a better life for yourself, and letting her decisions ruin her own life moving forward.

You dumped a hot hoe for a woman old enough to be your mom lmao if srs

this, got to the point where you're stalking her car.
You're a weirdo OP, typically guys go through this with their first relationship and never again lol

1st of all - ain't nobody reading that novel.

2nd, ironically, the worst thing you can do to her is actually the most mature and healthy thing: do not seek revenge, forget she exists, and grow and improve yourself. 9 times out of 10, chicks like I'm assuming you described in your encyclopedia volume will destroy themselves and end up fat and unhappy. That's when she'll find herself scrolling on ******** and come across all the things she could have had which will foster even more resentment between her and her baby daddy.

cliffs: your post was too long. stop cucking yourself.

You don't. Move on and never speak to her again

You don’t.

Walk away and never return. Be a fkin man not a child.

you have to get it through your thick numbskull that it doesn't matter.

there is no winning, there is no inflicting the pain back

you could go through all this work, elaborate plans, adding girls on social media hoping she sees

and she would not even notice, all the while she is on YOUR mind fuking up YOUR emotional state.

its not a game, its not a battle. the only thing you are doing though by continuing to think of her in this way is that you are allowing her to fuk up your life.

if you want to "win", you simply move on and live a happy and hopefully crime-free existence that doesn't involve stalking people who could give 2 chits about you.

this fake af and gay post

Damn sounds like some kiddy chit tbh.

You dump her after 1.5 years (wow...) and expect her to come running back once you change your mind?

Oops, too late, you made your choice and she doesn't want to get back with you.

that should be /thread.

also, the GPS part... not sure if srs. You got issues if you resorting to that. Work on yourself first

You broke up with her and broke her heart in doing so. She owes you nothing. You laid down spike strips and are stepping on them with your own bare feet.

Once its done, its done. No looking back. She's moving on and so should you.Maybe you should start using a loofah in the shower.

It was my first serious relationship. And first love. And you're right. I don't think I'll do anything remotely similar with any girl ever again. It's extremely toxic and damaging to my emotional well-being.

ahh well at least you got it out of your system

You played yourself and blame her. Typical misc psycho.

Somewhat. It will take a little bit longer to fully flush her out of my thoughts. Hope I won't relapse.