I wanted to lose my virginity with this escort to finally get it over with but now I feel even worse. I feel the need to contact her and get to know her. I cant get her out of my mind.

I may be a simp thats fine, but thing is I cant be a player. I dont FEEL good doing that to a girl and never contacting her again, Its just Im not like that. I just cant be hit and run guy, some have it, some dont.
Im pro standing up for yourself and men to dictate the tempo in a relationship and man up but this is something else. Im just for connecting with people.


I feel like ****ing **** I want to cry like a bitch.

****. I made a mistake.

Damn

feels man (srs)

Then find a normal girl and jestermaxx

Nobody in their right mind jestermaxxs an escort nor should they

I've never had to pay a day in my life

lol at ruining your mental health over a literal whore.

You need to get your shiit together boyo. srs

Yeah ok now I searched what jestermaxxing means cause I havent known until now and no I dont condone this behavior. Why would I act like someone Im not to impress others. Doesnt make sense. Im behaving like I am due to some influences from the past that enabled me to overcome my fears and obstacles. I dont behave and act im something Im not to please others.

Time to hit the bars, do some calisthenics and cardio. Ffs