Never in my life have I been more afraid in my life than now. Ever since I had my first relationship, it has been downhill since. I have seen a pattern. The first girlfriend left me because of pressure from friends, second girl left me for a rich chad, and the third one was the worst. Family fights, arguments at 2am, suicide threats, trips to rehab, lies, deception, holes in the wall, DDLG, and brainwashing. That took place from 2016 to 2018. In the events in between relationships I've tried to find a girlfriend, but the incel mentality began to take form in self hatred and saying that I wasn't good enough for no one. It got worse when after the third relationship, rumors of abuse began to arise towards my ex girlfriend. I was seen as an abuser to the town and more and more people began to out me and scorn me. I am ashamed of the man I once was. When I moved out of town I thought I could start over and begin a new life. I began to make friends and go to arcade bars and things like that, but all I found was more self hatred.

Most of the girls I tried talking to were either taken, not interested, or ultra male loathing feminists.

I'm losing hope and I think I'll end up single forever without family.

Accept CHRIST.

women are ruined and have been ruined by feminazi rhetoric everywhere

its end of days soon

Does it mean I'm gonna end up lonely ?

I'm a Christian already.

Bump.

Well first of all, even if it was your fault you phuked up with your exes, you have to always be looking forward and forgive yourself and forget them.
Secondly, being single > being locked in with a manipulative ho. You have to pick your friends wisely. This applies possibly most to your partner.

Last night I had a mental breakdown.
I got told to just give up. I'll get constantly rejected which will only make my inceldom worse. I should just forget about relationships altogether and focus on other things in life. No woman will every be content dating someone with previous failures, and no woman will love me.
I don't want to be single all throughout my whole life. I want to be seen as an actual human being, not some alien to just
disregard.

I want to start a family. I'm sick and tired of nightclub whores.

I feel you OP, I have a similar story to tell.

Never in my life have I been more afraid in my life than now. Ever since I had my first relationship, it has been downhill since. I have seen a pattern. The first girlfriend left me because of pressure from friends, second girl left me for a rich chad, and the third one was the worst. Family fights, arguments at 2am, suicide threats, trips to rehab, lies, deception, holes in the wall, DDLG, and brainwashing. That took place from 2016 to 2018. In the events in between relationships I've tried to find a girlfriend, but the incel mentality began to take form in self hatred and saying that I wasn't good enough for no one. It got worse when after the third relationship, rumors of abuse began to arise towards my ex girlfriend. I was seen as an abuser to the town and more and more people began to out me and scorn me. I am ashamed of the man I once was. When I moved out of town I thought I could start over and begin a new life. I began to make friends and go to arcade bars and things like that, but all I found was more self hatred.

Most of the girls I tried talking to were either taken, not interested, or ultra male loathing feminists.

I'm losing hope and I think I'll end up single forever without family.