phantom pnus pain

I have physical pain in my pnus due to my circumcision where I can just feel myself getting amputated against my own will. its like people that are missing a limb experience pain when the limb is no longer there except mine is in my pnus where my circumcision scar is. the pain is intense sometimes and all I can do is hold my pnus until the pain subsides. the fact that my genitals are mutilated is making my life a living hell. I wish this was just a nightmare and I woke up and checked my pnus seeing that I had my whole body back.