can't do this forum anymore, it's distracting me again, thought I could just use it casually

got into a longwinded argument with some dude who preyed on impoverished Asian chicks overseas, got really pissed at him b/c I have Asian family and then someone else called me a racist POS for trying to point out his racism and show him my point of view

that seriously just phucked with my head, I know in my heart I wasn't being racist or hateful, judging people based on his race or anything, was just relaying what Asian people had told me, felt like I had betrayed the people in my life that I loved the most

most of all felt disgust at someone who was so unashamed and insistent in his depravity, beyond the sex chit, people said they generalized people on race but they weren't racist and I just felt sick/ashamed that I got genuinely angry at some random pervert online

when I first saw this forum and saw all the racist chit, and not the goofy jokes but the real malice and weird fetish chit, I thought I could make a difference where it actually mattered, because I had experienced racism, my family has experienced racially motivated violence, and I have seen someone get killed over race

had just found God and was feeling great, turned from Him and lost sight of His grace, spoke some angry words that I shouldn't have, but I don't think I was being racist, gonna ask for forgiveness and turn back to the light

tell you what man God is the only truth, He is love, as soon as you lose sight of Him you end up slipping into darkness, as soon as He slips your mind then the temptations of sin will start to pull on you

idk if what I did was a sin, trying to obey God completely, I want to give away all my possessions and start traveling to churches to preach, but I gotta take care of my loved ones, and honestly cannot preach the word if I cannot obey Him completely all the time

so just gonna focus on work and reading the Bible so that I can avoid any temptation towards sin, am not gonna come back later, and chiefillini I forgive you, just hope you find peace in your life.

this forum is my last connection to all that mass media stuff y'all repost to point how messed it up it, let me tell you that you do not need any of that stuff in your life, it will only poison you, no need to invite those negative things into your life

not gonna read any replies to this thread so feel free to talk trash about my sanctimonious ass, love y'all

Vote red.

curt got us factiry jbob