Dating when you have died of COVID is depressing

i wish i had found somebody 7-8 years ago and at least had a kid even if marriage didn't work out.
Currently seeing some chick who i know isn't going to work out but stringing along just i don't feel lonely for a bit longer, all while suffering anxiety all the time due to said chick. Meanwhile facing so much passive pressure from parents/family to find someone and start a family. Biggest regret is not trying harder to find a decent chick at 25-28. I know misc says sloots gonna sloot, but i know people who are happy and raising a nice family. This sucks bros.