I downloaded GP onto my phone and computer the other day. When I went to the easter family gathering, my cousin uttered "cocksuck" after dinner. I think it was because I told them that I grew a half an inch and I'm almost 30. It was due to my mogging flexibility and elongation. This family has always been "obssessed" with height for as long as I can remember. I'm not too offended as he is 3 years older. It is sort of freeing. I've always looked up to my cousins as they seemed more intelligent. I guess hard times make hard people.

My Grandpa's friends wife was telling me that she had an ingrown and I told her my story. I hope they didn't say anything to her that would spark that topic, but who knows?

It astonishes me that I still feel a void in my life. Is it relationships, work, past mistakes, aging? Probably a combo of all these. I have my brother, and I want to spend time, but I feel like a lot of the space he gets should be spent with his GF. He was supposed to be here tonight, went to her place.

Opportunities come and go. I am disappointed that he won't be joining us for the second year in a row at the ski travel lodge, but I am not making any specific pick up plans. I will however, be in the village doing me and living life.

Is depression a direct result of past mistakes, repressed sexuality, medication, or fear of something? Who says I'm depressed? I have made mistakes in the past, but it doesn't define me. Sexuality? All 3...jokes aside, I consider myself heterogenous. My meds are an antiemetic.

Is veiwing pornography the same as vividly picturing a scene from recalled experience? Is it possible to combine the two? What if it never existed? I would say yes and no, it is seperate to the viewer because of it's existance alone. Without it, I think there are "stars" that could be conjured up in the mind to perform in a similar situation. Therefore, is it combinable? The short answer is maybe; depending on the scene. But to picture them in a different role would require too much forethought; however, it is possible to see yourself in a position on the screen. What would the world be today without it's existance? Probably the same, but hard to tell.

I have an invention idea for the airport. I think it's pretty good. Sliding gates at the terminal. What's the point of the airline attendants checking your passport and ticket when you already did that yourself? All it takes is a scan of the barcode on the ticket. I guess we'll wait till Saturday to tell them about it. This invention is the greatest of all time, this weekend for sure.