Tired of being fat and ugly, checked the scale today and my weight has went up more than 10 lbs and bodyfat went up 2% in 6 weeks despite doing 30 - 90 minutes of brisk walking most days and sticking to a 3000 calorie diet with the occasional unhealthy snack, I've also been lifting for an hour every other day. My weight is 238 lbs and my bf is 38%, not sure what the fukkery is with it but I shouldn't have went up that much, I did start taking creatine again but I wouldn't expect it to make me gain that much weight.

Also got soft rejected at my last job by a woman (I'm off work by the doctor right now), said she wants someone her own age, but she's only 4 years younger than me, seems like a mind fukk to me, I don't entirely blame her, I wouldn't expect her to want someone who's morbidly obese and I wouldn't want a woman who's massively overweight either, she's a 6/10 for reference, I was told I'm a 4/10 (by Wheatwaffles).

Suicide is out of the question cuz I can't bring myself to do it, but I still do fantasize about it, I'm not an incel either btw.

Don't think I got the energy to give you the motivational speech that you need. So just imagine I did. You'll be alright


Edit: also creatine bloats me good with a lot of water weight. But still stick with it and continue to diet down.