I have yet to share the story of my last several years on here, and I guess it’s because I was never one for drama, attention, fake goodbyes, etc.

I lifted for almost 25 years. Met a lot of great people, loved the atmosphere, the people I’ve met along the way and spent a lot of time on the forums chatting about BBing, nutrition, and life. Unfortunately, some things must come to an end.

A few years ago I was diagnosed with cancer. It absolutely wrecked my endocrine system, so much so that lifting was no longer a possibility. Exercise in any form causes me to crash and burn within 10-15 mins. It took my appetite with it. My weight plummeted, as did my strength. Along with other medical issues that followed as a result, my life was no longer the same. Recovery is no longer likely. The signs and symptoms have gotten worse, which means the tumor is likely back, so I have an appointment to go back and have another scan.


Depression hit me really hard at one point. I found out that the only thing that helps this particular kind of tumor is THC, which surprisingly helped my depression too. It prevents the crashes as a result of eating (abrupt endocrine overload), gives me an appetite, but my use has to be limited because of resistance, so it’s far from optimal.

My saving grace was God, and a farm we bought when things were not looking good for me. A piece of heaven where things were quiet, and a reason to get out of bed and push through the pain and fatigue. The needs of our livestock keep me motivated to keep going every day, and of course, my family.

I have no intentions on completely leaving the board, but my posts will likely become less and less. In the meantime, I’m just going to be chugging along and running the farm the best I can. Whatever comes, comes. I’ve certainly not given up, as new friends, family, establishing a relationship with family we were never close to, and new ventures are def enough to keep my spirits up.

If things turn around for me, I’ll likely start posting regularly angain and continue being a PITA.For now, I just need to focus on life.

God Speed OP. Even tho you're a boomer Repub establishment Israel cuck, I hope the best for you (SRS)

Hope things get better breh...

I'm not going to lie that was a tough read. You're an OG and always will be. Wishing you all the best and please keep us updated. I hate it when good members here just disappear.

Jesus Christ man I had no idea. This news is a gut punch brah. You’re a quality poster and a true misc OG. One of the few remaining great ones. I hope all turns out to be well and I pray for your healing.

Hang in there OP.

Maybe you can use this thread to document your journey. I think that would be a good read and source of support for you, if you’re up for it.

Solid OG post at a time when this place is overrun by trolls and incels.

That sounds really tough, wishing you the best and hope you can get to full recovery.

Cancer f**king sucks.

Stay strong, Kraken. I wish you well and hope you can have a speedy recovery.

Please keep us updated and God Bless.

thanks for sharing with us m8, i admire your positive outlook.

stay strong brother

Agreed, take care of yourself breh.

Don't take any medication or therapy from crooked doctors.

Eat only high Fats, and raw Animals.

Raw grassfed butter

Raw unsalted cheese

Raw grassfed never frozen meat.

Raw eggs

Do not eat anything else.

Eat the foods that God put on this earth for you.

You will 100% heal yourself. Dead srs.

You are a fighter Kraken! May God bless you more!

imagine crying on a gay bodybuilding forum full of men

As others have said, that was a real gut punch to read. You are a great poster and I always appreciate how deep into detail you go for lots of your posts. Always well written and covering areas many people wouldn't have thought or known about. You definitely add unique perspectives.

Sorry to hear man. Hope things work out.

this. well said

this. one of the few posters i would rep on every wisdom sharing post i read but to see "must spread the reputation around before repping Kraken again"

that really sucks to read as you are one of the good guys. let god protect you and your family.

Best of luck brah

I’ve had family members with cancer, my advice is to force yourself to eat, you need food to survive. I hope the cancer goes into remission.

HEre brah:



And THC, am surprised it has that effect. Most assume it is just for pot heads or stoners. BUt I know most use it for issues on what you are facing, pain, sleep, anxiety.

Thank you for sharing that, its a good reminder to anyone that stuff like that can happen to anyone and to make good with the time that you have

If its not too personal, just how bad is the situation?

Hoping you can get well

On spread, but best of luck to you. I’m glad you’ve gained your relationship with God and that you can be closer to nature on your farm. Sounds like you’ve lived a good life, so no reason to give up on living yet!

Try DMT before it’s too late

Stay safe

Thanks for sharing, probably shed a manly tear or two writing that, I shed one reading it. I sent up a prayer for you, people beat cancer every day and I'm praying you are one of them. PM me for emotional support anytime.

I remember the first go around brah. Was happy to see you back posting when I came back but not happy to hear this. Beat it again.

God bless you man and keep fighting the good fight. Keep moving forward and staying positive and take care of yourself.

You’re gonna make it.

Don’t die stupid. wtf are you doing even thinking about it? Stop it.

Well ****ing ****, this blows

I am so sorry to read this. I hope that you are able to beat it and make a full recovery. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Sad to hear. I hope you're able to pull through.