03-22-2024, 03:59 PM
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Anyone ever just feel like it’s over
Already lost confidence in self 10x, already failed, no zeal for life, nothing to live for except to minimize suffering, hate my appearance, hate my personality, hate how I talk, how I move, how I do everything, hate everything about myself.
Probably dying, have been chitting blood for days randomly and not sure why. Prolly have turbo cancer. Maybe this is the gift the universe is finally sending me to put me down. I don’t have to keep doing this.
The princess of England just got cancer, maybe I also have cancer too.
Just started a new job, I have 0% confidence in my ability to succeed. Have no energy, can’t concentrate, get overwhelmed and stressed too fast. Just want to lay in the dark in bed, that’s all I’m good for.
Fukup loser POS, what a cruel world this is.
It’s over, I mean it’s really over. Maybe if I have cancer I can go on hospice or something.
Probably dying, have been chitting blood for days randomly and not sure why. Prolly have turbo cancer. Maybe this is the gift the universe is finally sending me to put me down. I don’t have to keep doing this.
The princess of England just got cancer, maybe I also have cancer too.
Just started a new job, I have 0% confidence in my ability to succeed. Have no energy, can’t concentrate, get overwhelmed and stressed too fast. Just want to lay in the dark in bed, that’s all I’m good for.
Fukup loser POS, what a cruel world this is.
It’s over, I mean it’s really over. Maybe if I have cancer I can go on hospice or something.
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03-22-2024, 04:02 PM
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Come on now, don't talk like this. You are worth more you are not chit. This is really important to understand.
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03-22-2024, 04:03 PM
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Brah you are an inspiration to many of us with how you turned your life around.
03-22-2024, 04:04 PM
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Focus on milk drinking 1 handed cleans and become misc king
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03-22-2024, 04:05 PM
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Originally Posted By YeahImMad⏩
Why are you so mad?
Come on now, don't talk like this. You are worth more you are not chit. This is really important to understand.
I'm just a whit guy frm the future, I completely out of touc
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03-22-2024, 04:06 PM
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You're probably depressed because something is wrong.
What do you mean by chitting blood? Is it bright red, or black like coffee grounds?
What do you mean by chitting blood? Is it bright red, or black like coffee grounds?
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03-22-2024, 04:06 PM
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Don’t give up, mayne. Find God and find a purpose.
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03-22-2024, 04:07 PM
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Yes sir. I've given up on life sir.
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03-22-2024, 04:11 PM
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damn brah, you're not a failure in book. Legendary miscer, strong af, employable skills etc. You also have a nice appearance (nohomo), not sure what's made you feel this way. I think what is truly missing is a better relationship with your family srs
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03-22-2024, 04:13 PM
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feel like that everyday
for a decade already
my only friends are mary jane and john molson
for a decade already
my only friends are mary jane and john molson
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03-22-2024, 04:14 PM
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Originally Posted By OptimusTrajan⏩
Bright red blood bro
You're probably depressed because something is wrong.
What do you mean by chitting blood? Is it bright red, or black like coffee grounds?
What do you mean by chitting blood? Is it bright red, or black like coffee grounds?
And yes I’m starting a new job and I’m chitting blood and I’m feeling overwhelmed and stressed
And my life has not gone too well the past 5-10 years
I am just expecting that things will keep getting worse
03-22-2024, 04:15 PM
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inb4 eod
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03-22-2024, 04:17 PM
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Originally Posted By swordplay76⏩
Where is he hiding? Why is he hiding? lol peekaboo! Come out, come out, wherever you are! Ready or not, here I come!
Don’t give up, mayne. Find God and find a purpose.
Oh! Where could he be? Let’s go look around and see where he’s hiding.
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03-22-2024, 04:18 PM
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Yes I'm right there with you
Life keeps beating you down and beating you down. Up until now I kept fighting back getting back up and staying positive despite the repeated blows. Eventually you get tired though. You cannot beat life. No matter what's its eventually going to win and you are going to stop getting back up fighting against it all. I feel like I'm there now. Don't even want to get up and try. Don't even think I can anymore if I wanted to.
Cliffs:
-It's over
Life keeps beating you down and beating you down. Up until now I kept fighting back getting back up and staying positive despite the repeated blows. Eventually you get tired though. You cannot beat life. No matter what's its eventually going to win and you are going to stop getting back up fighting against it all. I feel like I'm there now. Don't even want to get up and try. Don't even think I can anymore if I wanted to.
Cliffs:
-It's over
03-22-2024, 04:23 PM
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Originally Posted By TryingMen⏩
fuuuuuuu so much this
Life keeps beating you down and beating you down. Up until now I kept fighting back getting back up and staying positive despite the repeated blows. Eventually you get tired though. You cannot beat life. No matter what's its eventually going to win and you are going to stop getting back up fighting against it all. I feel like I'm there now. Don't even want to get up and try
when i wake up
the real nightmare begins
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03-22-2024, 04:28 PM
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Originally Posted By TryingMen⏩
I don’t want to come across like I’m lazy or something I was working 3 days after I got out of the hospital for alcoholic liver failure, literally at a new job with fluid still in me all swollen
Yes I'm right there with you
Life keeps beating you down and beating you down. Up until now I kept fighting back getting back up and staying positive despite the repeated blows. Eventually you get tired though. You cannot beat life. No matter what's its eventually going to win and you are going to stop getting back up fighting against it all. I feel like I'm there now. Don't even want to get up and try. Don't even think I can anymore if I wanted to.
Cliffs:
-It's over
Life keeps beating you down and beating you down. Up until now I kept fighting back getting back up and staying positive despite the repeated blows. Eventually you get tired though. You cannot beat life. No matter what's its eventually going to win and you are going to stop getting back up fighting against it all. I feel like I'm there now. Don't even want to get up and try. Don't even think I can anymore if I wanted to.
Cliffs:
-It's over
Started exercising and getting back in shape, it actually was going well for like 6 months but late last year I started going downhill again, didn’t even start drinking again, just started going down
Quit my last job cuz I fuked it up and it got to be too much. Now starting a new one. I just know I’m gonna fuk it up. I’m gonna disappoint everyone and myself. I’m gonna alienate everyone, and nobody is gonna like me.
I can only keep doing this for so long. I’m really trying but just fukin suck at everything man I can’t do anything right, ded srs I’ve never been good at anything.
Why can’t someone just murder me or something? Like srsly or why can’t I choose to just leave this life?
Why do I have to stay here trapped?
I don’t even count how many days sober I am anymore, it doesn’t even matter. Who cares?
03-22-2024, 04:34 PM
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Originally Posted By YeahImMad⏩
Well look who it is. Haven't seen you in like forever.
Come on now, don't talk like this. You are worth more you are not chit. This is really important to understand.
No homo
No homo
And OP, it's been over. NOt just for you but for everyone.
Cookie will always crumble.
Just make the best of what you got and just live life right now.
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03-22-2024, 04:35 PM
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Originally Posted By Ausaric⏩
you hate your appearance/personality/how you talk/how you move
Already lost confidence in self 10x, already failed, no zeal for life, nothing to live for except to minimize suffering, hate my appearance, hate my personality, hate how I talk, how I move, how I do everything, hate everything about myself.
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How do you expect to look?
What kind of personality do you want?
How do you want to talk?
How do you want to move?
If you start naming off people you want to look and sound and move like, then you've already failed. If everyone behaved like one single person, life would be boring The things that make you different are what make you stand out (in a good way). If you try to act like "someone else" people will pick up on that. Its a HUGE cliche, but you'll be more comfortable if you just be yourself.
As for the whole cancer thing. There are over a dozen different reasons why you may have blood in your stool. If you're under the age of 35 then its highly unlikely its cancer.
-What color is the blood? If its dark then its coming from much further up in your intestine or even from your stomach (an ulcer=fix your diet)
-If its bright red and only shows up as a "streak" on your stool that means you have a hemorrhoid or an internal fissure from straining too hard
-If you have loose blood, it could be a polyp (which are mostly benign) that got torn
-Or it could actually be a food item you're eating and you don't even know it. If you eat beets raw, your toilet can look like a murder scene.
As for your anxiousness and not wanting to do anything…Everyday make an effort to do one thing outside of your comfort zone. Ride your bicycle, walk through a busy park read a book at a public library, just be in public around people. Over time you'll get use to it and you won't feel so awkward…in fact you'll realize that everyone is weird and awkward. Its just that you are hyper-aware of your awkwardness.
03-22-2024, 04:36 PM
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Originally Posted By nothingshocking⏩
On spread with you from like 5 years ago lmao srs
Why are you so mad?
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03-22-2024, 05:17 PM
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Originally Posted By Ausaric⏩
That means it's less serious. Could be a hemorrhoid or something. Go see your doctor.
Bright red blood bro
And yes I’m starting a new job and I’m chitting blood and I’m feeling overwhelmed and stressed
And my life has not gone too well the past 5-10 years
I am just expecting that things will keep getting worse
And yes I’m starting a new job and I’m chitting blood and I’m feeling overwhelmed and stressed
And my life has not gone too well the past 5-10 years
I am just expecting that things will keep getting worse
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03-22-2024, 05:25 PM
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Originally Posted By YeahImMad⏩
good to see you back
On spread with you from like 5 years ago lmao srs
I'm just a whit guy frm the future, I completely out of touc
This macine is obsolete
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03-22-2024, 05:28 PM
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Originally Posted By GaryRidgway⏩
I thought you were a soldier of Christ
Yes sir. I've given up on life sir.
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03-22-2024, 05:30 PM
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addy comedown at end of day explains all this. depression, agiation.
03-22-2024, 05:35 PM
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Starting a new job is always overwhelming unless you're a high flyer type, don't worry on that front, just give it time.
03-22-2024, 05:44 PM
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I'm just cruising through life at this point, mindless self indulgence and little else. Been pretty fun.
Short cuts to success are often paved with lies.
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03-22-2024, 06:09 PM
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Originally Posted By fate0311⏩
I haven’t taken a single dose of addy in like 2 weeks bro I’m saving it for when my job starts
addy comedown at end of day explains all this. depression, agiation.
I’m only in training today and next week
I’m saving it for when I need it
Bet you didn’t expect that? I took the addy for several days and then stopped. I can take it whenever I want, and stop whenever I want, and when I took it I felt fine
The addy is my last resort to help improve my behavior and level of function. It could be a godsend for me. Like a diabetic requiring insulin. My brain lacks prefrontal cortex activity and dopamine production.
03-22-2024, 06:16 PM
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Have you considered eating mushrooms?
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03-22-2024, 06:17 PM
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You just need to care more about the time you have before you become nothing more than fertilizer. Cherish it, make it amazing through everything.
I probably banged your mom.
Eat the whole animal like a real man.
03-22-2024, 06:17 PM
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OP i thought you loved your barista job? also if you're chitting red it's something you ate or hemorrhoids if you had bleeding in your gut it would be black
She was the best man
03-22-2024, 06:18 PM
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bro i used to watch you cut water bottles up back in the day
find another passion and occupy yourself
find another passion and occupy yourself
I appreciate well thought out subtle trolling.
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