Cant lie, I’ve been having a rough go at it today boyos.

When I proposed to my gf last week, it was the happiest moment of my life when she accepted. Literally nothing will ever come close. I didn’t know this at the time, but she had been diagnosed with cancer a whole year ago. This whole time, she’d been trying to work up the courage to tell me, probably wondering whether she even should... Doc is saying she only has a few more years to live at best.

Didn’t sleep last night. Didn’t eat, didn’t cry. I cant really put in to words how I felt. I guess I just felt sorta hollow inside. Like something was already taken from me. I was so lost in my own head while on my way to work, it took me a while to clock the honking.

This guy was just screaming at me going “WHAT THE FUK” at me and tailgating me. He pulls along side me and just started cursing me out his face going all red, scared tf out of me. All I could do was apologize. Idk what I did, but I know I fukd up. Im such a stupid fuking piece of garbage. Fuking useless. even my own gf didn’t wanna tell me she was dying.


After the guy sped off, I just found a safe spot to park at, put my head down and I cried.