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01-15-2017, 04:14 PM
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Originally Posted By InstantLoser⏩
Heading back to school to finish my degree in Network Security. Part of me wishes i had never left IT years ago chasing oilfield dollars.I learned anything hardware related as a hobby. I work in Network Compliance for a living. Anything I review on YouTube I buy for myself. I do a lot of buying and selling on Craigslist so I get things used where possible. I trade with people also which is a nice fringe benefit of not buying things retail all the time. The Samsung however I paid retail price for, given that there aren't any used ones on the market as yet.
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01-15-2017, 04:23 PM
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Originally Posted By faxanadu⏩
I was a cook for 11 years on and off in my teens and then later after I got out of the Army. I wish I'd gotten into IT much sooner, but in fairness I'm almost 37 and when I was a kid, computers weren't like they are today. Even then (I started building PC's in 1998) it wasn't like you could just throw one together.. you had to manually set jumper pins on the motherboard, deal with IRQ steering, etc. When I was a kid, home PC's weren't really a thing. No smart phones either. Man I sound old, lol.Heading back to school to finish my degree in Network Security. Part of me wishes i had never left IT years ago chasing oilfield dollars.
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01-15-2017, 04:45 PM
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Originally Posted By OPGenesis⏩
I definitely don't disagree with anything you said.I don't know. It's kind of hard to be someone else, or change your natural personality.
When me and my ex split I kind of looked at myself as flawed, especially with being introverted. I remember being fooled by stupid pick-up stuff, and thinking I could turn into some charismatic, suave, charming individual. In reality, that wasn't going to work.
My innate personality works better within the realm of small groups, or one on one interaction. I'll never be the guy who is super comfortable in large social settings, making everyone laugh, and just being the highlight of everyone's night.
I have a friend like this and it's natural for him; it's been like that, for him, from the beginning. I'm all for self improvement, but I think a lot of who we are isn't plastic. I could recommend just trying to have a better attitude, or pushing yourself out of your comfort zone, but is there anymore you can do but that?
I think a lot of people are guided by their past experiences as well. It's hard to break out of a rut when there is no positive reference points.
Life is difficult and confusing. I definitely fear dying alone, without finding a faithful partner, but I am blessed with having a small group of friends who view me as some sort of quasi family member.
When me and my ex split I kind of looked at myself as flawed, especially with being introverted. I remember being fooled by stupid pick-up stuff, and thinking I could turn into some charismatic, suave, charming individual. In reality, that wasn't going to work.
My innate personality works better within the realm of small groups, or one on one interaction. I'll never be the guy who is super comfortable in large social settings, making everyone laugh, and just being the highlight of everyone's night.
I have a friend like this and it's natural for him; it's been like that, for him, from the beginning. I'm all for self improvement, but I think a lot of who we are isn't plastic. I could recommend just trying to have a better attitude, or pushing yourself out of your comfort zone, but is there anymore you can do but that?
I think a lot of people are guided by their past experiences as well. It's hard to break out of a rut when there is no positive reference points.
Life is difficult and confusing. I definitely fear dying alone, without finding a faithful partner, but I am blessed with having a small group of friends who view me as some sort of quasi family member.
It is hard to get out of your comfort zone and grow. I was a shy kid growing up with really jacked up teeth up till 23/24. I actually think most peoplearen'tthemselves and are convinced that certain fears and desires define who they are. Ever seen people that lead an informal group discussion but then wig out when they have to standup in front of that same group and give a presentation? What has changed? Nothing really except perception.
The people that I've seen excel the most in my life are the ones that found clarity and realized what they thought were problems was just bullchit perceptions based on irrational fears and desires. It's like dudes that think the reason they suck with women or people in general is because of their clothes or something... when in reality they're just projecting a million bullchit "what if" scenarios about their style into the present ... which then makes them awkward as fuk because they aren't being genuine to anyone especially themselves.
I've definitely had social anxiety in the past and still do on some occasions. But i try hard not to be a slave to my emotions. I feel them, recognize it, determine why it's there, and alter my perception. I'm not some buddha or something... there isn't really a permanent solution... it is a constant struggle. But people forget that it's not about perfection, but progress ... and have a sense of humor about life and your problems.
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01-15-2017, 04:59 PM
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Originally Posted By InstantLoser⏩
I'm in my early 30s and definitely wish i had some better mentors when i was in junior high and high school. My brother and I definitely knew more about computers by a long shot vs. almost anybody or any adult we usually came into contact with. Heck, we were dialing up BBS's in the early 90s to chat and play games. I wish had one adult that could of slapped my parents and said, "You need to get him involved in this community/school/company". Easily could of been making 6 figures at age 20 if i had some better guidance. I just learned and did chit out of fun and comfort zone.I was a cook for 11 years on and off in my teens and then later after I got out of the Army. I wish I'd gotten into IT much sooner, but in fairness I'm almost 37 and when I was a kid, computers weren't like they are today. Even then (I started building PC's in 1998) it wasn't like you could just throw one together.. you had to manually set jumper pins on the motherboard, deal with IRQ steering, etc. When I was a kid, home PC's weren't really a thing. No smart phones either. Man I sound old, lol.
The positive is we definitely understand technology better since we've seen a lot from its infancy. Back when i did IT work there was a kid (19 year old) at work that spent tens of thousands of hours playing WoW and he couldn't even fix his own computer to any degree. Heck, I don't even think you could play Warcraft 2 back in 1995 without knowing how to build a computer hah. Nowadays, it's "Oh... doesn't work... buy a new one".
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01-15-2017, 05:37 PM
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Originally Posted By faxanadu⏩
My interest in gaming is what got me into building PC's, which led to the rest. I built a gaming PC in 1999 and bought a PCI Voodoo 3 instead of an AGP, because I didn't know the difference. After I found out my mistake, I decided to learn more about it so I wouldn't make that kind of expensive error again (the PCI card obviously functioned, but an AGP card would have been significantly better for gaming). I started studying products on Newegg (and other similar sites), and started building more machines, and broadened my spectrum of interests from there. I took C++ and Visual Basic, and some basic Networking courses in college. After I graduated, I moved from MI to KY and got a job fixing laptops for a few months (contract), then moved into Helpdesk for ~2.5 years (Government contract), then into what I'm doing now for the last 7 years.I'm in my early 30s and definitely wish i had some better mentors when i was in junior high and high school. My brother and I definitely knew more about computers by a long shot vs. almost anybody or any adult we usually came into contact with. Heck, we were dialing up BBS's in the early 90s to chat and play games. I wish had one adult that could of slapped my parents and said, "You need to get him involved in this community/school/company". Easily could of been making 6 figures at age 20 if i had some better guidance. I just learned and did chit out of fun and comfort zone.
The positive is we definitely understand technology better since we've seen a lot from its infancy. Back when i did IT work there was a kid (19 year old) at work that spent tens of thousands of hours playing WoW and he couldn't even fix his own computer to any degree. Heck, I don't even think you could play Warcraft 2 back in 1995 without knowing how to build a computer hah. Nowadays, it's "Oh... doesn't work... buy a new one".
The positive is we definitely understand technology better since we've seen a lot from its infancy. Back when i did IT work there was a kid (19 year old) at work that spent tens of thousands of hours playing WoW and he couldn't even fix his own computer to any degree. Heck, I don't even think you could play Warcraft 2 back in 1995 without knowing how to build a computer hah. Nowadays, it's "Oh... doesn't work... buy a new one".
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01-15-2017, 06:13 PM
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Originally Posted By InstantLoser⏩
Voodoo3 hehe. I think that was the first graphics card i bought with my own money... AGP version for me. I think i did it to play D2. My parents bought our first in the 80s. My older brother is like a modern day Leonardo Da'Vinci... dude was drawing, inventing, programming, and building computers at like age 7 or 8. He was the one that brought out the inner nerd in me. But ya... same story ... games > inner nerd > hobby > skill set > job.My interest in gaming is what got me into building PC's, which led to the rest. I built a gaming PC in 1999 and bought aPCI Voodoo 3 instead of an AGP, because I didn't know the difference. After I found out my mistake, I decided to learn more about it so I wouldn't make that kind of expensive error again (the PCI card obviously functioned, but an AGP card would have been significantly better for gaming). I started studying products on Newegg (and other similar sites), and started building more machines, and broadened my spectrum of interests from there. I took C++ and Visual Basic, and some basic Networking courses in college. After I graduated, I moved from MI to KY and got a job fixing laptops for a few months (contract), then moved into Helpdesk for ~2.5 years (Government contract), then into what I'm doing now for the last 7 years.
I spent an ungodly amount of time playing this 1995 MMOG which i still beating...

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