OP, what you are experiencing is simply the ego finding a new way to inflate itself. Happens to all of us when we go on a self improvement journey.

Sounds like a lot of cope. There are lots of people making more money than you, banging a hotter wife than you, and have a brighter future with a family and loving it more than you. You're burned out trying to improve yourself and not settle but fact is you missed the bus and at this point you should be focusing on building up a family and the people around you, not just focusing on making yourself better. No one gives a **** how long you can meditate or whatever skills you've been working on. Life as an adult is about supporting other people.

It's because you have worked on becoming whole and complete within your self, whilst at the same time understanding that we are all one.

The biggest issue I see with people who go down the self improvement road, is that they see life as a resume of skills to complete ("read 100 books", "bench 2 plates", etc) and then judge anyone who has less of a resume than them. It's not about bettering themselves, it's about their insecurity needing to find a way to one-up other people. If you remember NVious, he was the absolute worst person about this.

I get about looking down on the plebs, one of my worst character traits is that I shoot holes in everyone I meet. But thank God I never fell into that "everyone else but me is a sheep!" trap. A comforting lie to tell a wounded ego for sure. Everyone's dealing with their own chit, but no one's an empty automaton, and it's sure as chit isn't because they haven't read Tolstoy like an enlightened superior person has. If you start believing they are, then you really just don't know them well enough.

Tl;dr



ETA: an example came to mind when I re-read this post.



I have a brother who's doing a doctorate in machine learning right now. He got a straight 4.0 in STEM undergrad, aced his first two years of grad classes, and now in his third year, he needs to find a topic for his doctoral thesis. And having to find and pursue an open-ended problemscares the ever living chit out of him.He's called me on the phone a couple times panicking "I don't know what to do! I need someone to tell me what to research!" He ended up stressing out over it so bad he got an ulcer.

Dude is a one-track grinder with nary a spark of creativity in him, and he could really use one of those idea men to help him along. Yes, I've been around those liberal arts "creative" types before, and they're generally annoying as phuck. But I wouldn't automatically write them off because they're on a lower-earning path than a machine learning engineer. Once you've been around enough STEM drones, you even learn to value those folks a bit regardless of whether you get along with them.

Yeah brah, we are making the misc great again; the resistance is us.

To put a long story short I spent a lot of years developing myself reading books about stoicism and the mindset of successful people, mediating for an hour or more a day having out of body higher consciousness experiences, having paradigm shifts in how I view myself and who I am, making art and understanding art, studying philosophy deeply and finding my purpose..

Yet here I am surrounded by people who watch fight compilation videos on YouTube
People who act petty or do things to start conflict for entertainment. People who are discontent and it shows in the way they act… so aimless chasing emotions minute by minute posturing around with such a small perspective on life. People whose only goal in life is the picket fence dream, nice big shiny car and a mate that’s good enough.
I’m surrounded by purposeless basics.

And I’m not saying any of this to sound like I’m so above anyone it’s just that I’m wired different and this game everyone else is playing that they’re trying to invite me into isn’t something I’m willing to partake in.


It’s rare I find someone I instantly connect with but after talking to them for a bit it’s always someone else whose on the same journey someone with a bit more going on between they’re ears. On the opposite end of the spectrum it’s always some basic mofo who feels uncomfortable around me. Some slack jawed gimp chasing any quality ass, living for the weekend, and no real goals other than getting laid and consuming.

I’m kinda venting but I’m to the point I just can’t deal with people who aren’t “on my level”. I really have to change my environment or only hang with those with my shared interests.

I never thought I’d get to the point where I’d write off someone as just an idiot but here I am.

Help?

Hang out with successful people then.
It's the same with anything in life.
Become a pro bodybuilder and you won't be able to hang out with fat sacks of chit.
Become rich and you won't be able to hang with broke sacks of chit.
Become smart and you won't be able to hang out with dumb sacks of chit. Etc.

Gotta find people with a similar mindset.

wave_length dropping Gems

Strong this. Not sure why i always connect with your posts. Maybe it’s because we are on the same wave length? Seewutididther

We‘re brothers in iron, this alone unites us. Funny thing is, writing that post is also the ego inflating itself. I guess when we realize that we‘re all ego regardless is when we can detach from it. But if I‘m honest, I don‘t know.

I am way more spiritually awakened then the both of you, everybody knows that.

I am way more spiritually awakened then the both of you, everybody knows that.

Truth. You’re exactly right about the ego thing though. A healthy amount of ego is good. I always lol when i see people make an ego out of getting rid of their ego thinking they are enlightened. The ego is a human survival mechanism, also part of self esteem.

I'm not trying to brag, but I like to think of my self as the spiritual leader of this forum.

Spiritual matters have to be processed and approved by me prior to being released for the public.

The biggest issue I see with people who go down the self improvement road, is that they see life as a resume of skills to complete ("read 100 books", "bench 2 plates", etc) and then judge anyone who has less of a resume than them. It's not about bettering themselves, it's about their insecurity needing to find a way to one-up other people. If you remember NVious, he was the absolute worst person about this.

I get about looking down on the plebs, one of my worst character traits is that I shoot holes in everyone I meet. But thank God I never fell into that "everyone else but me is a sheep!" trap. A comforting lie to tell a wounded ego for sure. Everyone's dealing with their own chit, but no one's an empty automaton, and it's sure as chit isn't because they haven't read Tolstoy like an enlightened superior person has. If you start believing they are, then you really just don't know them well enough.

Tl;dr



ETA: an example came to mind when I re-read this post.



I have a brother who's doing a doctorate in machine learning right now. He got a straight 4.0 in STEM undergrad, aced his first two years of grad classes, and now in his third year, he needs to find a topic for his doctoral thesis. And having to find and pursue an open-ended problemscares the ever living chit out of him.He's called me on the phone a couple times panicking "I don't know what to do! I need someone to tell me what to research!" He ended up stressing out over it so bad he got an ulcer.

Dude is a one-track grinder with nary a spark of creativity in him, and he could really use one of those idea men to help him along. Yes, I've been around those liberal arts "creative" types before, and they're generally annoying as phuck. But I wouldn't automatically write them off because they're on a lower-earning path than a machine learning engineer. Once you've been around enough STEM drones, you even learn to value those folks a bit regardless of whether you get along with them.

Others have suggested reading good fiction to develop your empathy, and I agree. Even better than meditation.

OP go read Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse. It's about a miscer that goes no food, no pillow, no fap, becomes a CEO 10k/day and finally realizes that nothing of that matters and that accepting reality is the final form of happiness (semi srs).

There's literally a chapter called "With the ChildLike People" in which he is frustrated with how he cannot relate to normal people after his journey of self-improvement (dead srs). Go check it out and learn.

someone with a bit more going on between they’re ears.

they’re ears.

To put a long story short I spent a lot of years developing myself reading books about stoicism and the mindset of successful people, mediating for an hour or more a day having out of body higher consciousness experiences, having paradigm shifts in how I view myself and who I am, making art and understanding art, studying philosophy deeply and finding my purpose..

Yet here I am surrounded by people who watch fight compilation videos on YouTube
People who act petty or do things to start conflict for entertainment. People who are discontent and it shows in the way they act… so aimless chasing emotions minute by minute posturing around with such a small perspective on life. People whose only goal in life is the picket fence dream, nice big shiny car and a mate that’s good enough.
I’m surrounded by purposeless basics.

And I’m not saying any of this to sound like I’m so above anyone it’s just that I’m wired different and this game everyone else is playing that they’re trying to invite me into isn’t something I’m willing to partake in.


It’s rare I find someone I instantly connect with but after talking to them for a bit it’s always someone else whose on the same journey someone with a bit more going on between they’re ears. On the opposite end of the spectrum it’s always some basic mofo who feels uncomfortable around me. Some slack jawed gimp chasing any quality ass, living for the weekend, and no real goals other than getting laid and consuming.

I’m kinda venting but I’m to the point I just can’t deal with people who aren’t “on my level”. I really have to change my environment or only hang with those with my shared interests.

I never thought I’d get to the point where I’d write off someone as just an idiot but here I am.

Help?

This is what I got from skim reading OPs post.

OP understand that some people aren't interested in self improving and others may already have/are but they're not obnoxious about it.

I hope you're not one of those insufferable self improvement book readers in real life.