Most of the time i ask why, and i can't find a reason

Good things happen - fun, socializing, food, exercise, etcetera

Mostly it's banal and pointless and mentally painful for whatever cause. Any rational to do it for another few decades rather than just, nah?


semi srs

There's no meaning of life. Stop fretting over bullchit. We're just insignificant specks of dust in the cosmic scheme of things.

Pretend you're God, assuming one exists. how would you feel about a speck of dust complaining in the Universe you created?


You would probably prefer a speck of dust being grateful if you were ever to listen to it

misc, fap and TV

A man needs purpose in life. My family’s got a long history of depression and I’ve suffered from it as well, probably would’ve roped had it not been from my work/volunteering I do.

Without purpose, whether that be helping others, raising offspring, or creating something, life is pointless.

what work volunteering do you do?

Why keep complaining?


^ Better question

Why keep existing?

The upcoming epic moments that await you. Some of which are planned. Some of which you, in this moment, can't even fathom. They're coming and just the thought of the potential happiness and positivity from the unknown future should be enough to continue choosing existence. Roadblocks will come, negative unknowns will assuredly come. But you continue to exist for the positive unknowns.

yeah it is pointless, that's the point. Do what you want.

Because I want to

Never understood this at all, I enjoy every second of life.

Because you have to unless you die. So are you gonna make yourself die? If not, stfu and keep on.

Those who have been blessed with a good easy life will never understand. Good for you boyo.

So basically being in a state of cope that life may or may not get better?

It's all just killing time, mayne. My mood doesn't really get up or down any more... I've kind of hit that point where I've ran out of hope and ran out of fux to give, and everything's all just kind of the same.

Some guys I golf with wanted to go to emo night in downtown SD last night. I was like sure, whatever.

"We're gonna go home and get some food and weed! See you later, FAbrah!"

I go to emo night alone. BRB pay $20 cover. BRB pay $15 for a Long Island. BRB pump my fist to Fall out Boy but not really feeling it.

I get a text. "Sorry FAbrah! We're too stoned to make it! So sorry man, we'll make it up to you!"

And I was like, what are you sorry for, cause that text didn't even move the needle an INCH for me. I gave zero fux about emo night, I was just hoping they would show up and help me get laid.

I bail from emo and just go take a long walk along the SD harbor front, killing time for the train. I go from 500 people in a drunk sweaty concrete box to 0 people and some ships, and my mood doesn't even change. I liked the haborfront a little better, srs. It was cheaper anyway.

I woke up today and decided to clean my apartment. I'm half-assing it and miscing b/c I'm lazy, but tbh... my mood between being at a drunken concert party and scrubbing toilets didn't even fukking change. It's like the same level of meh to me. All just killing time.

oh look another internet loser that think they are the only ones with struggles

There's no inherent meaning to life but you should strive to find meaning in life that gives you a reason to wake up every day

This guy talks about it at the beginning of the video, pretty interesting watch.

Lol. That's not what I said at all. But what i said was 100% true.

You think someone born with in a happy household can ever truly understand someone who grew up abused, starving, and without most needs? Naw mane. Have some empathy. Nobodys life is the same, we all have struggles, but your a fool if you don't think some struggles are far greater than others.

Also, i'm not a internet loser. I'm a self made business owner who started from NOTHING and I net 30-40k/month. And can prove it with fat stacks of cash

damn that's a good description of my statesaw a couple clips from there will watch morebuy misc island srs

Why not?

lol, my family was broke af when I was a kid. That was my fuel to make it my business for my kids to never go through that.

But you had a family that cared for you? Blessed imo, srs.

what is your point then? Kids are starving in Sudan and no one cares.

My point is some people have much harder struggles than others, resulting in their outlook in life. You are the one who disagreed with some common sense.

Also. I care. I give out alot to local homeless. To this day, I collect all my recyclables, fill the bags, leave them in my trunk and give them out to people I see looking for cans to recycle. My workers think im stupid going through all that trouble.

Why? because that was me a few years ago. Collecting cans just to eat. I remember being so happy over 10-15 dollars so I can buy a pack of cigarettes.

Some people do care. Just not you.

If you care so much, help OP instead of going after everyone annoyed with OP's repetitive threads.

Hanging out to watch how this ends.

Bird of Prey rehab center in my county. Was thinking about doing something with a rescue shelter for pups since my dog passed away on the 31st of August and I miss his ass.

feels

Been feeling this a lot since I turned 30. This song really speaks to me these days