I lived that whole thing once. Eggshells, her resenting and nagging, browsing escorts sites but not using them cuz I felt I wanted something diff, her blowing up at me and two day fights, fapping all the time. lack of sex.

One day she blew up and kicked me out. Was the best thing that ever happened to me. It was a wake up call to take care of the home I lived in and to treat co inhabitants right. Became a better guy for it, stopped browsing degen, went on a ho streak and got it out the system. Finally fell in **** with a girl who is perfect in every way for me. We moved in and plan on starting a family.

Grieve it but know it was long dead and then move on. This is a huge blessing. Let it go man.

Like yours mine ended over something tiny, a miscommunication literally. If it blows over something small it has been done for months already. No coming back but its a blessing. If you were considering escorts it was because you knew something was wrong inside. Now I only watch pron literally one time a week. I bust all my nuts inside my girl and never if only rarely think I miss out on other girls til I see her again and immediately forget all that.

She did everything she could to adjust and not make me feel like she was lecturing me. It was my own insecurity. “The something wrong inside and me riding the fence” caused me to lash out and be toxic. I lashed out because I wanted it to be her fault for my own lack of happiness. She did nothing wrong

The “something wrong inside” for me was thinking I can do better physically, her not speaking to me in a more sweet tone and not feel like she was too hard on me. Now I realized I goofed up. I didn’t think it would hurt this much.

She did everything she could to adjust and not make me feel like she was lecturing me. It was my own insecurity. “The something wrong inside and me riding the fence” caused me to lash out and be toxic. I lashed out because I wanted it to be her fault for my own lack of happiness. She did nothing wrong

Yeah I remember feeling this way too srs, it was all my fault, she was perfect did nothing wrong I was horrible etc. The guilt you feel is actually making your pain 100x worse brah. You need to forgive yourself, you’re a human and just doing your best. A relationship takes 2, there is a reason you were acting that way at that time. Something in you was not being fulfilled by her. That’s not her fault but not necessarily your fault either. Realize this ASAP so you can eliminate the guilt otherwise it’ll fuk you over for a long time

I know the exact reason it started… projection. I was projecting my unhappiness onto her. I wanted her to be the villain and be the target of my misery. That way, it wasn’t my fault. I wasn’t the one messing up this relationship.

Our relationship has been on egg shells for a while on the verges of breaking up but I never thought we’d actually break up with each other. My main complaints have been her attitude/nagging/unloading/complaining and our sex life (partially my fault).

Because of these things I idiotically told her that I wasn’t that in **** with her and head over heels over her. I said what I said at the time but looking back and the amount of hurt and pain I’ve felt the past few days, I was in **** with this great woman but was too blind to see it and too proud to feel it. These statements, of course, created even greater separation in our relationship.

In the relationship, I often thought of whoremaxxxing and hooking up with random girls and felt that I was missing out. That and a porn/OnlyFans addiction caused me to fap way more than I was initiating and needing sex. But now that’s she’s gone, the thought of empty sex and random women coming in and out of my house disgusts me. A great quote is “you’d be an idiotic to trade in your house for a hotel room”. Too much Andrew state for my brain.

She’s 100 percent right in that she’s worked on herself and tried many ways to not nag, not ride me, try to change her tone, her delivery but nothing seems to work and she says she feels hurt by this. Nothing is enough for me. I agree with her. I should have let me pride and feelings go aside and told myself how lucky I was to have a partner like her every day I woke up. Instead, I got in my feelings and became passive aggressive and noticeably annoyed when she kindly reminded me to tidy stuff up and remind me to do something.

She accepted me for my introverted, autistic self. She chose me at the beginning. I never felt like she was juggling me or had me as a backup plan. She ****d me with such vulnerability while I was constantly on the fence with showing my **** for her.

I spread myself too thinly with work, gym, sports, my dog, my family, and my friends. I made plans with her but she often got the scraps of time leftover and usually I was way too tired to be engaged.

All this to say that it hurts!!! She was my longest relationship and the closest I felt to having a family of my own. All around the house is pieces of a home we created together. Seeing her room and her decorations warmed my heart. Now she’s moving out and getting her own apartment.

I begged her to say and I’m pretty sure she’s made up her mind.

I know the exact reason it started… projection. I was projecting my unhappiness onto her. I wanted her to be the villain and be the target of my misery. That way, it wasn’t my fault. I wasn’t the one messing up this relationship.

Going through the same thing, she left on May 1 and went NC
The other day it showed that she creeped my Linkedin page at 1am...

Any brahs know why?

OP doesn't know she was already talking to someone else for months now

by the time a girl breaks off a long term relationship, she's been over it for a long while, but will hide it.

It's over OP, she already has someone else, even if you don't know him.

Lol dude, she has you mind fuked.

Remember, she probably “mentally broke up with you” when you started therapy. But she needed time to secure a backup while still keeping benefits if your relationship.

Relationships shouldn’t be this tough. It sounds like you’ve been well gaslit for a while now.

i forgot to say that she paid me $1500 in rent/expenses the night before. the NEXT day after, we're broken up. she literally went to bed, dwelled on it, and decided it was over. she's moving out and asked for her $1500 back

Only type of guy who cries over a girl leaving is one who knows it’ll be hard to get another. Plenty of bishes out there, this could be seen as an opportunity to play the field and upgrade

Sorry to hear that op. Didn't read tho.