After doing LSD and shrooms I realized something

Something really weird is going on.. How could taking a substance cause those kind of "hallucinations".. maybe they aren't really hallucinations at all. Highly suspicious, I was on the verge of discovering the full truth but it almost destroyed me, every fabric of reality and myself down to each individual molecule and atom came apart. Then what was I? Was I still bigbtree if all of my fukin atoms are scattered from here to tim buck 2?