Need workout motivation again boyos

I'm slipping boyos, thinking of the squats fills me with dread… A little video of myself as well: https://youtu.be/Qbvz3Ru7dUc

In b4 miscers say "just watch the vid you posted to motivate yourself".

Maybe its discipline I'm lacking, I'm not worried about losing gains cuz I'm still doing it enough, just results would be quicker if I did it as much as planned.
Bloatlord, Arm wrestler, Live/sister/4 kids, Schizo, M:TG, Home gym, Fincel,
Open heart surgery, Disabled, Hep C, Dietcel, Low test, NOT an incel

Start transformation : https://youtu.be/mWd90XGHF40
DL 405 x 5 : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28GFsy7Kpyo

Reps:
Getterdone, GaryRidgway, BalognaNbeans
Blueberryboy, SirFapsAIot, explosiveMidget

I have list/users I hate.

JohnVee megathread: https://forum.bodybuilding.com/showthread.php?t=185540581&p=1703577931#post1703577931